She turned me into a woman !!

[swingerguy95621]

I couldn't think of any other title for this...lol.

So i've come to realize, my ex turned me into woman with emotions. What i mean by that is; she was my first and we genuinely feel in love within 2 weeks. 12yrs later, we've grown up into different people,a few things happened and now we've been split for 3 years.

So having been with her AND ONLY HER for that long of a time has crippled my (MEN'S) ability to have sex with random people or any person that i don't have a connection with. Since we split ive had a few one nighters and a married couple who i played with for a couple months. The one nighters meant nothing and gave nothing to me. It felt awkard to be touching a stranger or "friend" i liked the touching, but it felt weird some how.

In the last few months my ex and i have been messing around. she is still with the guy she left for, payback's a bitch :D , but she just told me today that she's liked everything we've done so far, she WANTS to suck me off, She LOVES doing it (which while we were married she would do it kinda often but it didn't do anything FOR her, but liked seeing me happy) and even though we were together for 12yrs, sometimes when she touchs me it feels awkward. but not NEARLY like it is from a stranger/friend.

So now i know i'm cursed to only have great sex with someone i have real emotions for. DAMNIT, that sucks ass.

[Milo Cronos]

Growing as a person with feelings may suck but, once you stop fooling around with the ex in a desperate attempt at holding on to the past? You'll find more pleasure in a relationship that's worth nurturing into something great I can almost promise!

[swingerguy95621]

man..i was so high..i had NO IDEA i wrote that.


but most of what i wrote was true. I'm NOT desperate to hold on to the past. The whole messing around with the ex...was her idea. i tried figuring out what it is she wants, but have just let it go and am enjoying the fun.

I was using her as a comparison. Sex with a total stranger is too weird and i have no fun. Sex with somebody i know know on some level, is less awkward. Sex with a friend was ok and sex with my EX...is good, but it's still not the GREAT that it was when i was in love. That's the part i was talking about.

I feel that it stems from the fact that she was my first and only for like 10years. So i never got used to sex with other people, as in being single and playing the field.

[mrwhite480]

Originally Posted by swingerguy95621

man..i was so high..i had NO IDEA i wrote that.


but most of what i wrote was true. I'm NOT desperate to hold on to the past. The whole messing around with the ex...was her idea. i tried figuring out what it is she wants, but have just let it go and am enjoying the fun.

I was using her as a comparison. Sex with a total stranger is too weird and i have no fun. Sex with somebody i know know on some level, is less awkward. Sex with a friend was ok and sex with my EX...is good, but it's still not the GREAT that it was when i was in love. That's the part i was talking about.

I feel that it stems from the fact that she was my first and only for like 10years. So i never got used to sex with other people, as in being single and playing the field.

DO yourself a favor and NEVER try to figure out what she wants. You will drive yourself crazy tryng to figure out that shit. Just have fun and enjoy the sex, but also be weary and keep your guard high. Dont get played.