New "freeform" Writing project, The continual preliminary draft.

[BryonEssex]

This is a continual freeform writing skills refresher for me, so bear with me and do try to be understading, in my absence I have put together an epic tale that in itself is ongoing. Due mainly to the fact I strongly base the events in the story to my life experiences of late. Because sometimes reality in itself is impossible to believe and must therefore be rewritten in a fable fashion. For if you tried to understand the beauty of the chaos and the serenity within the madness, you yourself would become the curse I must live with.

Basically because this is the internet Im not expecting anyone at all to believe the events described in my narratives so I polish them over by creating characters and backstory, put the characters through my experiences, portraying their needed roles.

I will only say this once, the events are real, the story was fabricated to a point for entertainment purposes.

[BryonEssex]

Chapter One: We forgot to establish a safeword.

I never find myself prepared for any of the life experiences I find myself in, Mainly due to the fact I refuse to even attempt to imagine what could possibly happen on any given day. I had gotten used to simply ignoring tradgedy in life, it never really seemed to effect my life, just everyone elses. I didnt care how much running and screaming everyone does, I refuse to be alarmed. Saved my life a few times, I dont know if I will continue with my luck on that much longer. Which brings us to today.

I have been in a relationship now for two and a half years, my fiance means the world to me, and our life is getting along well. Her name is Melisa, she is a beautiful carribean woman, and she recently made a new friend, her first since she moved here from New York City.

Melisa had been spending days with her new friend for a few months now, I havent even laid my own eyes on this mysterious woman so I was suspicious as to why shes been gone so much. I asked questions but my friends have been less than helpful with their advice.

So I suggest that I tag along with her to go meet this new friend. Ive become cautious about her new friend and if she really was a woman in the first place.

I dont consider my concerns to be over-reactions, I have been through relationships before where the girlfriend was cheating on me, and had been for quite some time.

Melisa and her friend set up a movie date for the occasion, my mind is still darting through possibilities of what would happen. Its fun sometimes but lately it has been just dreadful, I always end up meeting the worst case scenario of sorts.

We arrive at the theatre and Melisa leads me forward in her search for her friend, Im glancing around wondering which person it would happen to be, secretly hoping it be a horrendous beast of a woman, just to put my mind at ease. "Melisa! Over here!" comes a suprisingly pleasant voice, it made the hairs on my neck stand up though for some reason. Melisa squeals with delight and rushes off through the crowd leaving me behind fighting through the throves of tweens wanting to see the new twilight movie for sixth time. I wade through the tweens making my way to where Melisa's hat was, still wondering what I may find and if it will put my mind at ease. Standing before me was a woman who though not attractive by poular standards, still struck me as amazing, I mean Melisa had a gorgeous body, being Black she had wonderful curves that gave her a 50's pinup girls body. But her friend was much the same way, only where Melisa proudly sported a pair of soft, delicious double D's, her friend barely had a B cup, but her shortness and the curves of her lower body gave her a 50's pinup body. I stopped myself short though, I was engaged to be married, what the hell was I doing, I knew perfectly well what would happen if I let my desire set in.

"Babe, this is my friend Lacy, Lacy this is my fiance."

[BryonEssex]

"Hello Bryon, Melisa has been telling me some very good things about you. Its so wonderful to finnally meet you." They both share a moment of giggles, I found that very peculiar but I let it slide.

"Its very nice to finnally meet you as well, what kind of stories has she been telling now, if you done mind my asking?" It worried me slightly, I have known Melisa to divulge some rather inimate details of our relationshi to people, I was relieved that it was good news, but that only made me wonder more.

I got no reply to this as they were already talking amonst themselves and wandering off. That evening was pleasant, the three of us went out to dinner afterwards and had a nice conversation about their adventures in shopping and gossip, I broached the subject of what Melisa had told Lacy about, but again I got no reply, its like I didnt exist for the brief moment I asked the question.

A few days later and Lacy called for us to go out on another movie date, this time her fiance was off work so he would be able to meet me. Something in me felt a little saddened by this sudden realization but I quickly murdered that thought, I was in a committed relationship I didnt need to think like that. We all agreed on a long movie so we would have time to get aquainted, the theatre was mostly desertted for the movie we had chosen, so we could talk more freely among ourselves. Afterwards we had dinner again at the same restaurant and talked about each of our relationships. A few weeks pass and we all became reasonably close friends.

Over the next few days, Melisa and I spent a lot of time at Lacy's and her fiance Jeremie's apartment, where we quickly began to realize a sad truth about Jeremie. Despite what we originally thought of him, he was a tremendous prick, and treated Lacy like shit. It wasn't long before Lacy couldn't bear anymore and began to tell us what went on while we weren't around, how he would sneak over to his brothers apartment accross town and do all manner of drugs, get wasted, and come home before Lacy returned from work and when she did get home, yell at her for things that she wasn't doing, like sleeping around, being a money hungry bitch, controlling his life, and tell her he didnt love her and never has. He never ventured far enough to hit her, so she decided he was just doing it because of the drugs and he didnt mean it. She was miserable but refused to do anything about it. Melisa and I were extremely concerned, but Lacy said she just wanted someone to know so that in case something did happen to her, we could help, other than that she didnt want us to do anything about it.

I couldn't just let that go.

[BryonEssex]

I urged Melisa to try and find out more about what was going on with them, I told her there has to be something we can do. I went to work but in the past few days I was having difficulty concentrating on anything, I didn't know what it was that was making me care so much, she wasn't anyone directly involved with myu personal life, but all I could think about was protecting her. The sudden change was unsettling to say the least.

(The next events that transpired happened in such a frenzy it has proven difficult to sort out in my head, being that this was nearly a year ago now. I ended up playing frequent games of strip poker and Adult oriented truth or dare, just the three of us, we collectively decided to edge jeremie out of the circle until he sorted his sit out, so he was oblivious to any of this.) The circle of the three of us became very close, so being that my birthday was growing near I got an idea in my head. Since we began this little foray into a more intimate friend relationship with Lacy, I wondered if I could actually achieve an end result of all the teasing our little games had provided. And on the day of my birthday, whilst Jeremie was working, I revealed my plan, I didn't expect Melisa to actually accept, let alone Lacy, but O said it nonetheless, I asked If I could have a "hallpass" for my birthday, and one day only. And to my astonishment, Melissa agreed, I was speechless. A few hours passed and Melissa reminded me I only had four hours left to use my birthday gift, so I finally asked Lacy if she would have sex with me...

[BryonEssex]

I expected to be turned down almost instantly, instead Lacy just stared at me from across the room, staring deep into my eyes. Hesitantly, and with a slight quiver in her voice, she agreed. So I took her by the hands and helped her up. I wrapped my arms around her back and whispered in her ear that it will be fine, its a one time thing, you can forget it afterwards if you wish. But to my astonishment, she just simply kissed my lips and my neck a few times, and told me she wouldn't want to forget anything I do with her.

I had a massive harden by this point and Lacy had her hand down my pants caressing it. she then pulled me down on top of her on the couch, Melissa was sitting in the chair not 4 feet away. Lacy undressed me, then I her, she was kissing me like mad, all over my face and neck. I managed to convince her to actually kiss me , and when she did I pushed my tongue into her mouth and began caressing her tongue. She let out a sudden gasp, but slowly began following my example, I positioned my cock against her soaking wet pussy, and slowly eased forward and penetrated her.

She let out a soft whimper, and I stopped. I knew she wasn't a virgin, but she acted like I just broke her hymen, I looked into her eyes and she had one one tear streaming down her face, and the cutest little grin I had ever seen. I asked her what was wrong, and if I hurt her, she said no, she just wasn't used to actually making love. She told me about the first time her and Jeremie had sex, when he took her virginity, how he begged her to have sex with him and she kept refusing, and how he eventually forced her down and pulled her panties aside, and forced himself upon her. she was mortified, she had cried and cried, and he just kept pounding in and out of her. She said eventually she just drifted off in her head and blocked it all out, he finished a few minutes later and rolled off of her, got up and went downstairs. She said she crawled to the bathroom and did all that she could to clean up the blood and get all the semen out of her. Then she laid on the bathroom floor for hours, until her mother came home. But she didn't tell her mother anything. She got up, got a shower, and got ready for school. She felt trapped with Jeremie, like noone could love her since she was longer a virgin.

She told me I had done exactly what she was going her first time would be like, I had put so much love into my kisses, and I was so gentle. She said I was perfect, and it was a shame there ismt a clone of me So that she could have me too.

Melissa then spoke up. "We can share him, I know how amazing Bryon is. And I know that they just don't make men like him anymore. And after hearing what you said, I would feel terrible keeping him to myself."

Lacy then just pulled me closer to her and held me, she was weeping at this point. She began rocking her hips, and I started to thrust in and out of her. I felt like I had purpose, that this had so much more meaning to it than pleasure, my feelings at that moment changed, I just wasn't't aware of how much they had changed yet.

[BryonEssex]

this went on for two months, every other day I would have sex with Lacy, only it was more than that now, we were making love. It was slow and passionate, I put everything I was into that hour. I was in love with Lacy. Melisa and I had been together four years now, I know thats a lot, but things change.

I approached Melisa sometime in december, and I told her I was going to attempt to be with Lacy, and that I was sorry, she took that hporribly, as she began to beat the shit out of me, she was heavier than me, and she hits like a truck, I shut down and just sat there and took the hits, she must have hit me one good time because I woke up on the floor. I felt stuck, like there is not way out without getting the shit kicked out of me. But that wasnt the worst part.

The same night I got beaten, She had gotten into an arguement with Jeremie, and told him everything, he nearly hit her, and noone was there to help her.

[Wee Hector]

Originally Posted by BryonEssex

This is a continual freeform writing skills refresher for me, so bear with me and do try to be understading, in my absence I have put together an epic tale that in itself is ongoing. Due mainly to the fact I strongly base the events in the story to my life experiences of late. Because sometimes reality in itself is impossible to believe and must therefore be rewritten in a fable fashion. For if you tried to understand the beauty of the chaos and the serenity within the madness, you yourself would become the curse I must live with.

Basically because this is the internet Im not expecting anyone at all to believe the events described in my narratives so I polish them over by creating characters and backstory, put the characters through my experiences, portraying their needed roles.

I will only say this once, the events are real, the story was fabricated to a point for entertainment purposes.

Believe me, I have had things happen to me that nobody in their wildest dreams could even invent. If they are true then just go for it. Don't really have time to read at the moment but will do so when the occasion arises. Good luck.

[erbertunzh]

I asked questions but my friends have been less than helpful with their advice.

[rothoveyihu]

the serenity within the madness, you yourself would become the curse I must live with.

[bosquesgaoy]

I asked questions but my friends have been less than helpful with their advice.

[BryonEssex]

Life has happened quite a bit since my last post, I have made quite a few changes since then.

Most importantly I have gotten rid of the third member, or more or less she removed herself, because you see, it all turned out to be a game to her, yo tear a couple apart due to sheer jealousy that there was a man in the world who so completely met all of her wishes and dreams that a man could be, and I belonged to another, that and the fact she was just a racist as the rest of her family, which was not a suprise because my fiance and I have been getting loads of bullshit from everyone we meet. and yes of course we've all gone a bit crazy in the process but my level of insanity overshadowed all else and has brought order to chaos.

I lost the apartment because of what Lacy had done to our sanity and stablility, and Melisa wanted to spend some time apart and to be with her mother and siblings, so I drove her 900 miles away, But I have since gotten a new apartment after having to once again become a gypsy. And heres where I will begin this part of my ongoing story...

I drove to NY to bring my fiance back to our new home, somehow manage to double the distance traveled between here and there but drove there none the less. And once we returned it was only a matter of days until low and behold, two more women, yes, two more, two new women, became a part of both of our lives, with their own complications. I have no idea what she was thinking whenm she agreed to it, but they both are already making their advances on me and mostly towards my dick. We are only allowing them to stay with us for the summer, Eve and Emily, best friends, inseperable, If one stays with us we must bring the other. but thats not why the trouble began, the trouble began when I caught them watching the video I recorded of My fiance and I and Lacy abd I making sweet sloppy love, and they were loving every minute of it, I had snuck into he living room and sat down in the recliner and watched them watch the video, and giggle to each other about it. I was worried of course, this was much worse than the relationship issues that I had just gotten out of, it was already to a point of no return and I couldnt bring myself to stop it, yet again. It seems I have a weakness for the flesh of a woman. Or they have a weakness for me. As of yet I have not had any sexual contact with either of them, but Im certain its only a matter of time. They are extremely forward and candid in their conversations with me.

Ill have to revise the story further, im so fucking exhausted I cant keep me eyes open,

[BryonEssex]

It would seem their curiousity has not gone unnoticed, Just today I caught My fiance going through one of our more intimate photo collections with them, I feel trapped in a cycle, it grows more and more each event, and Im not entirely sure how to feel about it. If this is all my fiance's plan or not Im not sure, my already robust sex life has taken turns for the better with some new experiences that would otherwise seem impossible. But I do love her, and I fear what this will end up doing to us, Im remaining strong, but she wants me to succumb to these younger girls, Im essentially being used as the gateway for fresh young adults into the world of proper romance, Im the perfect man, thats what Ive been told, kind, caring, gentle when it matters the most. But the protective side to me is vast, I have fought hard for the freedom of the two girls already. with each of their ex boyfriends seeming to lay claim to them and their virginity, the baseball bat and machete I keep in my car have been used for deterrent a few times already, the boys intensity is unnerving to say the least.

But alas I begin to question why I bother posting my life on here, as risky as all hell as it is. And its not like anyone reads it through completely anyhow. Nothing has been changed here except the names. I havent even embellished the story, its beyond my creative grasp.

This is my life spiraling out of control, and my unwanting to stop it.

[BryonEssex]

<P>&nbsp; some time has passed, things happen and worlds dissolve. I seem to have have wen the best thing that could ever have happened to this circle of lust and passion. Though many laws have been undoubtably broken over the years. We have all become beacons of strength for those closest to us all. I am now a father to a wonderful son, and life has settledfrom the insanity that it was, it is difficult however, I am the significant other for the three. Supporting them when it matters, all of them. But I am now driven by my res ponsibility for them, we are in a sense a family now, who could have speculated this as a possible outcome.&nbsp; </P><P>&nbsp; In the next few years we will develop things as&nbsp;they should. I am Husband, I am lover, I am teacher, I am friend,&nbsp;I am father. I am the man they all need. And I now devote my life to them all.</P>

[BryonEssex]

<P>&nbsp;</P><P>&nbsp;. I've noted several times previously that I have become a monster, or perhaps I haven't, have it noted from&nbsp; now on if you will. I have lost the last remnants of what used to be me, I've willingly ecepted the role of protector, teacher, and lover but it has had an effect on draining me mentally. I had a hard enough time differentiating reality from complex hallucinations. And now it seems to have passed the breaking point. I am myself an actual father now, and as such I need to focus more on matters of immediate family. But this whirlwind of debauchery has only increased. I have put my foot down and said it needs to stop, but they have complete control of me now, they know the exact tone of voice that gets me going and their body language itself is an unfair advantage. They are all stunningly beautiful and they know what to do, I am now simply a pet. But perhaps that was what I so desired. I have little to no impulse control with them anymore.</P><P>&nbsp;</P><P>&nbsp;From the outside it may look like a dream but it has turned to a nightmarish haven. I'm getting all the physical pleasure I could ever dream of, but at the same time I know it must end, I have to move on and except my responsibilities.</P><P>&nbsp;</P><P>&nbsp;. Even now I'm having difficulty writing down that it is wrong, that it must stop, the monster inside me wants more. Its this internal conflict that threatens me so. </P><P>&nbsp;</P><P>&nbsp;&nbsp;Take this as a warning, the male fantasy of multiple lovers is a trap. If there is a shred of decency within you it will tear you apart. </P><P>&nbsp;</P><P>&nbsp; And to think I've made it this far carrying out this truthful documentary of my life with it being taken as fabrication, or for the most part ignored astounds me. I've seen people go to jail for so much less. But I guess given the age of consent laws I have danced in that grey area, although I'm certain polygamy is still a crime.</P><P>&nbsp;</P><P>&nbsp;. On that note, I think it's time I disappeared....</P>