ok, so to me it sounds like she may be giving you a opening to offer a friends w/ benefits deal. Granted I could be wrong, but I think you should lay your cards out on the table. Let her know that you respect her independance and have similar needs. Also, I would suggest you date openly different people in front of her... Even if it isn't a "real" date, just a female she can see you with so she knows you aren't looking to make her your main attraction and feel pressured by you. Now, if she isn't being fully honest about her feelings, she may get jealous. But that could be good for sex too. Jealous sex can be aggressive and fun.
If she doesn't seem too interested, then leave it up to her and let it go. If you don't pressure her after the initial honesty report, she may just come after you when she has thought it over.
If she does agree to it, make sure you both are clear on your boundaries; what one may consider an open relationship, the other may think is a stepping stone to something more "eventually". It is important to be clear with yourself too. If your feelings change you need to say so. She does too. Good Luck!
That's about the best I can offer. I hope it helps, if it doesn't remember I am not a licensed advisor of any type.
I would love to hear how this pans out.

 

I think I screwed up big..

..we all know how crazy horny I have been. That I haven't been able to get any for a while (I think it has been about 2 months) Long time for someone who likes it 3 to 4 times a day..
What I haven't updated you on yet is that I got a roomie now. He is in the middle of a divorce and has 2 kids. Apparantly they are divorcing because 3 years ago when him and his future ex-wife had their daughter she announced that he was never to touch her sexually again. He tried to get her to do councelling and a bunch of other stuff but she wouldn't budge and he didn't want to cheat on her so he left her. He is a friend of a friend so I sorta knew him already. When I hurt my hand and got set back with all the medical bills I had to come up with money fast so I rented one of my rooms to him.
I have three rooms, but one doesn't have a closet so I use it for meditations and like a quiet sitting/study room.
I know that is probably weird that a single person rented a 3 bedroom... It was a really good deal and I loved the view of the city and mountain, depending on the window I look out. Plus I love a place with a lot of history and character so I fell in love when I heard that it was built in the 1890's.
I digress
So Danny moved in with me for the next six months to help us both out financially and residentially.
Now that isn't the really screwed up part...
this is:
I fucked Danny last night.
I didn't really mean to let it happen. I swore when he moved in that we would never go that way... after all neither of us need those complications. But I guess he couldn't help it either, cause he initiated it... sort of.
I had just gotten off my computer and he suggested we watch some stargate episodes he downloaded for me. (I got the whole show from the first movie to the last episode -- ooo and if there are fans out there I heard there is a new show coming up in sept)
I was up for it, knowing I would just lie in my bed humping my pillow to sleep wishing for a man.
About half way through the show I got up to get a drink. I am leaning up against my kitchen wall by my table drinking my water. and Danny joined me for some rehydration. My dress I was wearing is one of my summer faves. It is a loose and comfy tanktop style dress that gives anyone looking a great show of my boobs when I lean over anywhere. He reached over and ran his finger up and down the seam of the bodice. My body was already wanting terribly... He looked at me, like he was in a trance. My body revealed my wanting by arching towards him with my hips. I swear I didn't do it on purpose. Next thing I knew my leg was up on the table and he was sticking his dick up my ass. (he used a condom of course) Just what I had been wishing for. I just let myself enjoy it and got lost.
I woke up with him in my bed. I was half way asleep still when I could feel his arms around my body. At first it felt so good to me. Warm strong arms holding me close into a wonderful smelling chest. But once I breathed him in a little I woke up completely. I sat up straight in bed. I started appologising to him. I am so freaked out about it.
He says to me, not to worry. He knows it was just sex and I'm not looking, neither is he. It was just a nice way to relieve the stress we both have been going through. He said he wasn't sorry either, unless I was mad. which I am not mad at him. I just want to be stronger than that. I don't want to use someone sexually that is paying some of my bills. I think it will cross lines of boundaries in a dangerous way.
So he took a walk and I am having my coffee.
CRAP.
Sexually I do feel better though.
DAMN !
promise you won't tell him.... I think I want it from him again, despite my knowing better.

I am SO screwed....
Hope your lives are a little less complicated. I am going to go play sims2 so I can actually control something, since I can't seem to control myself.:rose::rose:

 

omg new star gate i cant wait :excited:

 

Seems like quite the predicament. It may not be all bad though,it might be good, for both of you. But if he isn't strong, and lets his emotions take control, it could be bad.

I don't know that much, I'm just a fan and admirer. I don't offer any advice at this point, just that you go with what you feel is best for you. You seem to be doing well for yourself, so you know you have a good head on your shoulders. Just use it well enough, like it seems you do anyways, and I'm sure things will work out alright.

 

When Danny came home last night he didn't say anything. He just cooked dinner and set the table.
He has been here for a few weeks now. just over three I think. He is so far a pretty good roommate on keeping up after himself and stuff. We obviously get along well enough to fuck... anyways..
After we ate I decided we needed to reset our roomie boundary issue. I really need the $ right now and I don't need emotional or sexual entanglements to screw that up. So after discussing things thoroughly, we agreed to not have sex anymore unless we have seperate places or changed our relationship. (which I DON'T see happening since I like being single)
The difficult part is that he thinks we COULD maintain a friendship and live together and fuck.... all relationships on a seperate basis. I am a little more realistic than that. I have no desire to have another situation like Johnny ended up... and we weren't living together... that would have made it soooo much harder.
At any rate I hope Danny moves sooner than later cause I really enjoyed the way he fucked me. He was so uninhibited. I felt like he is really secure in himself sexually so that made it even better... he must have really worn his hand out with his wife. The sex ended up lasting hours, I didn't say before cause I was still freaking about doing it... but gawds! He wanted to do everything I even hinted at, anything new I would let him try on me, which felt cool to be experimented on... we did this one thing... hehehe... he was upside down.. I don't know how he manuvered like that but... lets just say I deeply regret letting him move in before finding out how compatible we are sexually.
Taking my own advice I am planning to go looking for some new play friends. This way I am distracted from his highly arousing sexuality, and kept busy with something just as fun.

Hunting for new food... MERRROOOOWWW.... hehehe...
j/k

seriously though. I think I saw someone renting out the last place available here a couple days ago... crossing my fingers... he looked interesting... lots of tattoos... mmm

on a side note. I think I have decided to just try to write as often as possible here. I may not always have something sexy to say, but at least then you would know why. I hope everyone continues to enjoy it.

Another question...
One of my most sexiest fans I have seen and I were chatting about the possibility of me starting my own pay site to help me make my bills better and not have to dissappear to do it. I am wondering if anyone here would even be interested in paying for stuff, and on top of that, what would you be interested most in seeing. I have not decided what or if I will even do it... but I am seriously considering... my finances are shot due to the injury I had... (plus my partner and I had a falling out which didn't help) and we all know what job markets are like right now... anyways, I don't believe in hand outs and I want to know if this is an option that could work. Thank you in advance for any info back. I won't be offended if it is a no. I also don't plan on stopping writing here if I do it.

May all your days begin and end with an orgasm!!
Niv

PS right now R.A.M. is playing with a paper bag. LOL he is soooooo cute! Can't wait to get a new battery for my camera.. Jace is napping.

 

I'd definatly pay for u
and i hope there will be alot features,

here are some ideas:

-More detailed journal on site
-Live cam sessions at certain times
-Private camsessions for extra $
-Selling used panties ( alot guys pay for that )

hope these help you out =]

 

I love the panties idea...

Thanks for the support... I highly doubt I really will do it... but it's kinda fun to think about.

 

this weekend

Well I thought things were going to suck cause I had to job hunt and crap and my new roomie Danny had his kids over... sorry for not posting, I just didn't want to chance them walking in on this kind of site.
I have to say the kid bit is a little style cramping for me, but his were very polite and stayed out of my stuff. I was really glad I didn't come home to a mess with them either... Danny really seems like a good dad.
He also said he wouldn't push sex on me, but that he also didn't hold to my "rules" and if I ever changed my mind I could take him up... gggrrrr... that arrogant.... god but the sex WAS good...

ok, back on track... I have sad news.
Today was the last day the blond guy was living here. I just helped him finish up his place tonight...
Even though I only got to make out a little with him, I really liked having him around. He was a very good neighbor. He would squirt water at me when I was walking by. And fix my tag if it was sticking out... and let me kiss on him when I was drunk without trying to fuck an inebriated person. I have a lot of respect for him and I highly doubt the next neighbor will be as good as he was.
He really reminded me of my brother by the way he would play with me and tease me. (my brother and I barely speak since he got married)

I still smell his scent on my shirt... mmmmmm it makes me feel so warm inside remembering his hug goodbye. I sometimes wish I did want a family like he does. but that is another impossible daydream. I would have gone crazy being tied down after a short while... at least I know myself well enough on this. Still, his kisses, when I had them, were more like home than I have felt, maybe ever.

Now that I have reminisced I will come back to the present...
btw, if my spelling sucks that is cause I don't check it.. I just write this and post it..

now before I mentioned about a couple of new guys.... one, a muscley man, and the other a guy with a lot of tattoos... at first glance, I was pretty interested, but talking to them kinda killed that... the muscley guy,was nice for a moment, but then he kinda acted weird, aggressive. He says really fucked up shit, like about killing people and baby rapists, I just felt a lil nervous with him... so likely you won't hear much about him again... the tattoo guy is sweet... he wants to write naughty stories here too.. I don't know if he will, but that is what he said. I think he is too immature for any kind of serious fun, but he may end up being a good friend.

I also want to give a very special hello to my sexy fan...
You know who you are:excited:... my cheeks are still warm... I'm posting tonight for you.

to all my readers
May your orgasms be long and satisfying!

 

I am really enjoying your reports. Keep them coming. Sure wish I was that sexy person you mentioned. :excited:

Thanks Nivi your the greatest.

 

niv, i would pay to be a member of your site if i had a job (which i dont :/) and its my dads and his gfs puppy, not mine. so i dont always see it. i just know that we've had it for half a year, easily, and he still doesnt come when hes called, he has no problems with peeing/pooping, then laying in it, just a lot of little crap too. so blech. glad to hear you got laid though lol and hope something good comes from tat' guy

 

*blinks eyes* Just read through the whole thread... riveting! Keep up the good work, and I hope things start working out better for you.

 

I have two words for you: CHOKE CHAIN

hehehehehehehe

sounds like a crappy dog.... lol sorry it's so poopy and not training well...

i'm not glad i got laid for once... now i want more and it's driving me crazy...

 

Surprisingly good. Nivie you are the greatest.Keep up great work

 

Lol I'm sure its not that simple and, well, he did say he'd be there if you needed him (your new room mate)

 

As I have been reminded, I really need to post more. I guess I get so busy living my life I forget sometimes to tell you about it. So here is my next update.
My roomie Danny is working out in every way except one. He is really hard to say no sex to. I know, I know, it would be so easy to just fuck around. But I really believe it would eventually cause serious problems to our friendship, and my living situation. So every time he comes out of the shower in a towel and is dripping water on my carpet, instead of thinking of the water stains, I imagine his slick body making mine wet all over. When he cooks, which he does a lot, I daydream it's his sausage I am enjoying. And when he accidentally bumps into me in the hallway, I almost lose all self control and pin HIM against the wall and have my way... but I don't... I just dream of it.
Nathan and I are becoming very good friends. I trust and respect him very much. He thinks I am smart about what I am doing with Danny. He says I can come play with him when he is available, and I do, I just would really like to get back to the whole original idea of group sex. He is back and forth on the issue. But clear, no pics.
That's it for now. I am looking for a job very seriously so I am really busy and tired from that. Most of my time and effort is going to try to make money. Hope your days are filled with orgasms and joy.

 

Its refreshing to find someone in this day and age who will bear their soul to strangers not only about sexuality but also spill thier guts about the things that are hurting them... maybe to burn off some of that tention. In all seroiusness have you ever considered becoming a writer / columnist your penmanship is outstanding and the way you can draw people in and the empathy and humanity you show are second to none. Anyone who can engage the masses in a thought provoking and soul changing kind of way should use thier talents for some higher purpose, not to say you owe it to us peeps but because development as a person should be everyones key aim in life after all it never good to become stagnant in yourself.

Anyway im sure no one will read this but i hope in some small way that if you come to realise such an amazing gift ( your writing and your humanity ) atleast i will have acomplished something in this shit of a day im having

 

lol. self control

 

kinkyangelina, i've just reported you, you don't have to spam with links in other peoples topics. Go make your own topic if u have something to say

 

this week has been a blur..

My dog was growling at the window last night all night. I don't know if it was something I should worry about, but it did make me nervous. He has never done that before. I am really tired today so if my words make little sense I appologise in advance.

I'm still looking for work. I have a few good leads, but nothing solid in a definate job yet. Hopefully the ones where I use my writings will be the one working out. I do enjoy that more than much else. I just want to get out of debt asap. I hate owing anyone anything so I try to stay clear one way or another. I even will pay cash for large purchases whenever possible.

I recently met a man on another site. He says he wants to be my Daddy on many different levels. He is also really pushy for my info... so I don't know how I feel about that. I do like the idea of a Daddy, but I am not a fast mover when it comes to IRL meetings. I usually like to know a person for a few years online with a good friendship before trying to meet them in person. I will let you know what I decide, when and if I do.

No sex, just a lot of being teased by Danny. He doesn't just walk out of the bathroom with a towel. He "looses" the towel quite easily, and lets just say his thick cock hanging there is not fair to show me.

I did attempt to visit Nathan, and I have gone out with some friends looking for new people, but nothing has come of any of that. Maybe I will just take a break and use the energy for something else. At least all this horniness won't be wasted.

Have a really wonderful day.
To my special reader, I love the sight of your hot throbbing cock. It has given me many orgasms and I have to thank you for that. Without your sexy chats, I think I would go insane.

Till Next time... kisses to all!

 

This just asks for the quote: Whose Ya Daddeh!!!!