I hope you are right about that, my friends want to drag me along to watch it :neutral:

 

i wish this hangover would go away

 

I laughed just about the entire movie.

 

I just saw Cowboys & Aliens. It was really good. And it had the thing for me that was missing with Harry Potter -- emotional connection when some of the characters died.

 

So a former lover of mine has found the woman he wants to be with. He’s divorcing his wife (which probably would’ve happened anyway) and will eventually move in with her. And I’m so depressed and I keep crying. And sure, part of it might be because I feel like I’ve lost something. We were not only good together sexually but were good friends as well.

But what it is more than that is how stuck I feel in my life. I am the major breadwinner in my family, which is pathetic because I’m fairly low paid. That’s not really the problem though – if that’s all it were, I’d leave and just work it through until I could find a good job. I have no doubt I could do that. The problem, though, is our son. Our son is a disabled adult and can’t live on his own. If I leave, I’m leaving him behind. If I take him with me, I can’t just work at anything; I’d need a good job.

All of that just came to a head today with my former lover. I don’t want him. I’m happy with who I have right now – although I am aching right at this moment for more physical time than is possible at this moment. So no, I don’t want my former lover again. But I want the choices he has. I want to be able to come and go. I want to be done paying for a mistake I made when I was 16 and got married. I want my freakin’ life back.

I’m not saying any of this on this thread to look for sympathy. Nor judgment. I just needed to get it out.

And if anyone has need of an awesome editor and writer, a really good graphic designer, a web designer or a webmaster on the east coast, let me know.

 

So tired but not ready to go to bed

 

Miss my dog had to have her sent "home" to my wife on Wednesday as the Big C was finally affecting her.
When we got her at 15 months old on Dec 31, 2000, I told my wife & daughter that she'd be our last dog. Now it's only my daughter and me.
We went for walks and talked to my wife, now I have no reason to go out and I miss that and her looks of love as we walked.
Be grateful for what you have as it is gone way too soon.

 

hello everyone :rose:

 

Morning sweetie

Random names ; Rip Kirby, Feral Cat care

Hymie Warmblood

Desdemona Cakebread

 

Even with the fan I am still too warm

 

I need my CC back!!!

 

What the fuck happened to Eastbay? Seriously. What is this shit?

 

Finally I get to watch the vampires

 

gah. I have finally found a girl I really like, one that is interested in me in return. One that is also within reach... but we can't seem to get any time to just sit down and talk...

 

make time!!!

 

I have the time right now. But, she works a 10 hour day, is living with her sister while she looks for an apartment/house and has a 2yr old daugther to look after. I am not going to pester her, I can't really get much more time out of her at the moment. It really sucks. But, have to live for the weekends. Hopefully I'll get to go and visit her in the next couple of weeks

 

Tell her Ari says hi!!

 

lol, shuddup ari

 

:excited::excited::excited: