sorry to hear about your uncle hun. come back soon?

 

love it

 

Man this is hot stuff, I hope you keep posting soon.

 

thanks for sharing

 

a question to my readers..

First let me appologise for just dissappearing like that on everyone... I went to the funeral of my uncle and ended up spending a lot longer out of town than I had planned. My hand was almost healed when I got a really bad cat scratch on top of the burn mark.. It got severely infected and I developed an allergy to the medicine I was using which made me have to go into the hospital for couple of days. They did some treatments and put me on a steroidal cream, that cleared up the infection and allergy problems but it took weeks to get much better.
(don't worry, no advice offered here was the cause of my pain)

Life didn't get better for me and that is what my question is about. I wonder if you (any readers interested) would let me know if you would rather I posted about my life regardless of the lack of sexy stuff, or if you would appreciate not knowing my struggles and keep to the point of the journal, to tell my sexcapades..

I started this journal with a great idea, which hasn't worked out the way I wanted, and I am concerned about the integrity of the work.. I don't want to just sit here and whine either.. I will tell you about my life whether it includes sexy stuff or not, but only if you want me to... Please respond here, or message me as you choose.

Thank you for your input
Love,
Niv

 

I for one would be interested in most anything you want to tell. You do seem to have an interesting life. :excited:

 

its ok for me if u shared sexy stuff n non-sexy stuff, you keep me intersted in anyway. take care my friend

 

the fact that you even opened up to alot of total strangers on a porn forum at all is remarkable. espically being so open and candid as you are. we are all very sorry to hear about all of the troubles you have been going through here lately. while the thought of reading about your sex life is what did first attract all of us to this thread, we wouldn't mind listening to you whine about the negatives going on. its the least any of us can do really.



wow that sounded alot more sappy than i intended but i think thats the best way i know how to sum it up

 

just keep going hun we love reading anything were close to you or feel it! so keep wrighting hun?

 

that was soooo NOT sappy to me! thank you so much. I really appreciate your words. They are kind and thoughtful and encouraging.

 

do i really need to answer that? im sure you can guess what my opinion is on the matter

 

forum slowness, today's entry

lately I have been here, trying to post, and having serious problems getting the site to actually do it..

Does anyone know WHY this could be? I have heard a lot of complaints but not seen any of solutions... I am seriously computer illiterate, so I thought it was just me at first... LOL


XNXX, please fix the problems! this site is great, but it will not be if the slowness continues..

I have not been laid in the longest time. Partially cause of the crap I was going through; I just didn't want to be touched, partially if there was anyone I would have excepted, they were gone. It is probably good that Johnny moved away.. I would totally take him back for the sex. haha, maybe I'm kidding there.
oh ya, you don't know about Johnny moving... while I was out of town he did, told Nathan a bunch of shit about me and left.. Nathan knew what was going on so he just was like "whatever dude" and glad to see him leave..
If I wasn't clear on what was going on with Johnny, he tried to get me to marry him. He kept introducing me to his family and they even tried to tell me we should be married. It was driving me crazy. I don't want to be married. At least not now, I still have plenty of time. He wouldn't take no for an answer. I was very straight up with my wanting and continuing other relationships. He at first acted like it was ok, but then as we got closer he became very possessive. He tried to stop me from leaving on a few occasions. He just went a lil nuts. The day we "broke up" (if you call it that) I had left to go get some supplies and when I got back he was waiting on my porch. He started berating me about how I should be with only him.. like that is the way to get a girl...I lost it when he started insisting I marry him (I couldn't believe what I was seeing) He cried and begged me to "dump" all the other guys and be his wife. This REALLY freaked me out. I yelled at him to stop acting like a psycho and I was done with him etc...
Nathan had been woken up from the yelling and came outside to see what was going on, (as well as several other men I haven't mentioned because they are not interests of mine). One of the older men I don't actually know told Johnny he had to walk away or deal with him.. (wow, I didn't know I had that kind of protection from strangers) so he just threw my key down and took off. That was the last I saw him.
I still have R.A.M. too, Johnny never took him for more than a night. I plan to keep him, he is a very good cat. He and Jace get along really well. They play all the time. Jace is a good dog too, his training is going well and I am glad to have them both.



I know I can masturbate if I really have to cum... I just really prefer sex with another person. I think I masturbated too much during my youth. (usually getting caught just before getting anywhere with a partner made that a necessity) Now I am paying for it... AAHHHH

Right now I would want anal, cause I like it during my female time which I am having... Something about an anal orgasm really makes the pain of menstruating go away. Weird... any other girls feel that way?

 

any orgasm works for me really.
sorry for all the drama youve been going through lately niv. that totally sucks.
thanks for writing more too, sexy or not, i like reading :rose:
youre hand doing better now?
anyways, get laid soon niv:excited:

 

oh yeah my hand is doing great... thanks for asking.

I have some scars on it from holes in my skin due to the allergies & burn etc. but I didn't have to get anything graphed I just had to be really really careful with it. My range of motion is coming back too. I am a little stiff still, guess that would be like i I had a cast.
(I broke my leg once - I didn't know I broke it, I drove myself home on a stick shift afterwards and never saw a doctor till six weeks later when it still hurt. - thats how I know I broke it- so I don't know how casts feel for sure)
I am making myself practise even though my stiffness is screwing up my fingering on my guitar too. But, I was able to play my songs "Infinity", and "40 miles", as well as "take me out to the ball game" and "simple gifts" all the way though without mistakes after practising several times... so I know it will take a little to get my flxibility back, but I am confidant I will.

 

Niv, first I would like to say welcome back. I enjoy reading your going ons. And sorry about your recent hardships. This has been a pretty difficult year for myself as well, but finally feel back on track and glad to see it sounds like that for you as well. Also, sorry Johnny was like that with you. Apart from being rude it is extremely unfair to you (or women from his perspective) to dump that kind of pressure. You handled it well and its good to see you had other looking out for you.

I have a quesiton I was hoping you could help me with, or others if they feel so inclined. I'm a 26 male. I haven't dated many women and been sexually active with even less. A handful would be the way to sum it up and it has been quite some time since the last time. I'm 5'11" average build, I work out 3-4 times a week about 190 lbs. and have lost 30 lbs. since Jan. There's a girl I have been seeing (just as friends) but I am attracted to her. We don't get to hangout (as friends) as much as I would like and have tried asking her out on an actual date. My question is how do you propose a sexual relationship that isn't tied down or let her know you're open to that, if she were to be. I know she enjoys sex, we have talked about it from past relationships. Any, or none if it would happen to be, would be fine and welcomed. Thanks for the time

Hope you find someone soon to help with your own yearnings!

 

i got caught up watching family guy so i forgot what i was going to say. *scrolls down* ooh yeah. i've been having problems with the server as well, the best i know to do is just refresh the page. stinks about johnny but it sounds like he was a total snob anyways so good riddance to bad trash and such. dry spells suck : P anddd im glad you're planning on keeping the cat and im also im happy to hear the training for the puppy is going well. wish we could say the same for ours but we think there is a chance that ours is a retard : / so thanks for keeping us updated hun : )

 

thanks kmall

how did she react to your date invite?

I feel honesty is always best. if you are up front with people they can then be real with you too. unfortunately it may make her stop wanting friendship with you.

At least you would know...

if she reacted badly to the idea of the date, you may not want to say anything more, at least till you get to know her better....

another idea... play truth or dare with her. she will have to let you know that way, and it could be a fun way to be naughty too...

 

maybe the momma dog's owners let your puppy drink alcohol or something.

Johnny was a bit of a snob. He acted like he could buy his way through life. Nice for entertaining... thats about it.

I try to be the alpha dog with my puppy, so it feels like a pack thing for him. how do you train?

 

Well we actually know each other from when we were younger and have started talking since Xmas this year. Her reaction was that she's always been in a relationship, recently out of one and happy to be flying solo. Since then we have still talked. That was about 2 weeks ago. We workout together about 3 times a week (swimming). I just don't know how to tell her I don't need anything taxing or over involved, I guess would be the way to put it.

 

sorry to hear about your loss, hopefully your plan will continue and start to really build up. keep us posted!