I am a 20 year old young man who lives in England and i have been bi-curious ever since i started to mature at the ages of 12.
When i was young i remember first noticeing girls of the sames ages breasts and looking at them and being fasinated.
But also i found my self thinking about boys to,
particularly my friends. I would often masturbate over the thought of the girls and boys i knew.
Some times me and my friends in a half jokingly half serious way would go round to each others house after school or at weekends and pretend to have gay sex. All in the sense of a joke but there were definitly serious tones to it. We would dry hump each other making jokey moaning noises and rub our penis's into each others ass cracks. Or just lie on top of each other and just dry hump each other like that. No kissing was ever involved but we used to do this quite alot.
I remember two instances, the first time i got my friend to dry hump me from behind and i could feel his hard cock rubbing up agaisnt my ass hole and it felt quite pleasureable.I remember trying to force his hand to touch my cock but he pulled away.
And i remember another time where i was dry humping him face to face but with my cock rubbing inbetween his cheeks and his legs where up when all of a sudden i experienced a strange feeling in my cock. I stopped, confused and ran into my garden were there was no one around and i checked my cock but to find a strange sticky see through liquid at on my cocks head. I now know this is cum but at the time had no idea.
When ever i masturbated over a girl i like it would often feel right and i felt very comfortable doing it.
But when ever i masterbated over the thought of a man, as i was about to climax i would all of a sudden get this over-whelming feeling of wrongness and divert my thought to a girl.
I have had sex with nine girls starting from when i was 14 and am yet to have any real sexual interation with a male. I really want to try having sexual intercorse with a male but i still very much enjoy sex with women and find women very attractive.
I do occasionaly watch gay porn and masturbate to that but as i am about to cum i do what i have always done and think of a girl as i orgasm.
I have never really understood why that is but i just feel very uncomfortable and men seem to stop being attractive to me as soon as i start to cum.
Some days i am at home and i crave to suck a cock, be sucked, fuck a guy, be fucked and taste cum but as like i said as soon as i cum those feelings go away and the idea of tasting cum becomes revolting to me.
Does anyone else ever get this?
I often think that these feelings are temporary and will one day go away as i am still young and still developing so i just assume that its a growing up thing.
But can anyone relate or does anyone have any thoughts on this? Or maybe you just enjoyed reading it?
All responces are much appriciated

 

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People please reply to this! I want to know peoples thought, opinions etc

 

I didn't read it all.. but I would say you're not gay, you're bisexual.

 

Maybe your "freaking out" is because of the beliefs that were set for you, that going after girls is "normal" and liking guys is "abnormal". It might not be the easiest thing to do, but understand that who you like is who you like, and you shouldn't be freaked out because this, that, or the other turns you on. Embrace who you are, and happy fucking, whoever it may end up being.

 

you are bi. just enjoy it!

 

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i woulnt worry 2 much about it, if u dont find any man attractive you probably arent gay. you get off on the fact that you think gay sex is wrong and dirty. you could always try a relationship with another guy but i dont think it would work. Maybe sexually a threesome with another man and woman would really work for you, and maybe even find your preference, tho this might be a little hard to come across.

anyway good luck

 

Thanks for the responces and the input guys.

 

I'm really in the same boat, I just haven't had the experiences you have (lucky motherfucker... )

I would define this as simple bicuriosity. I can jack off and pleasure myself to gay porn and all that, but I haven't met a guy I've been truly attracted to. Maybe a few that I'd fuck (usually the effeminate kind)...but nothing more than that. Most likely, it'll go away. That's my 2 cents.

 

I'm totally with Lone Wolf on this.

I used to be almost exactly the same, the difference is that during my early teens, just at the age of sparking of sexual awareness, I used to fool around with a friend of mine - it was more of a mutual masturbation, sucking at most (it lasted for quite some time then we stopped, I felt 'guilty'). I think this was what got me interested in cock (nothing else back then) but as I lacked the straight experience unlike you, most of the time I masturbated I used to think of doing stuff with guys. Now as weird as it seems (as my sexual attraction leaned more towards the gay side, unlike my emotional attraction was totally straight), every moment I cum I was so grossed out by my thoughts that I thought I'd never even think of it again. And each and every time I was wrong. So I just kept doing it until the feelings of guilt faded away. Completely. But it was not until I was around 20 or more and the final nail in the coffin of the feelings of guilt was my discovery of this forum. Now I consider myself more or less a full-blown bisexual and, God, I love it!!

So I think it's more mental, more about the knowledge, about social acceptance than a physiological thing though there's no doubt the teens go through harsh physical transformations.

Feel free to PM me if you'd like to discuss it further.

 

your just prob thinking about your child hood and wanna try it again as you cant remeber it clearly

 

Cool thanks for the input.

 

I WANNA BIG CHICKEN SANDWICH!

 

im bi, i dont mind sucking a cock every now and then but i dont like or care to fuck a guy in the ass, of course it feels good to be fucked in the ass either by a guy or my girl, but all in all id rather have some hot wet pussy..

 

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ditto except i ended up gay

 

well, part of the science tends to think of male bisexuality (unlike the female) as a transitional state to either one or the other extreme of the continuum... so I guess I can never rule things out...

 

i think you are right about this but i have never been bothered about labels, i went through the bi stage and came out the other side realising that i prefered men to women, i accept that i am gay and just get on with life, no regrets.

 

I agree with LoneWolf.