I am WAY deep in the closet. I love women but I love getting a good pounding in the ass or a cumshot to the back of the throat as well. Everyone who knows me thinks that I am straight but little do they know...
My parents say that if anyone of my brothers or I came out, they wouldn't care but part of me still thinks that they wouldn't like it. What would my three brothers think? Would people think of me as less manly? In public, I'm a manly man. I like having sex with my girlfriend, explosions, violent video games, guns, all that shit. But on occasion, I lock my door, get my dildos and have a gay old time. I've had sex with two guys before. It was amazing. There really is nothing like getting on your hands and knees and taking a chubby up the tail pipe. Getting hard just thinking about it. Sucking off the other guy in that glory hole until he said "fuck this". I unlocked my stall, he locked the restroom door, bent me over the toilet and shoved that slimy cock right up my ass. He turned me around and came into my sucking mouth. Both of my gay experiences were awesome. I'm a complete and total bottom. I would never want a guy sucking me off and I would never want to fuck a guy. I also like dressing up. I'm really scared to tell anyone. My best friend is a homophobe and he's told me that he hates gay people. How would my girlfriend react?

 

Dont be an idiot, unless you get into a serious relationship with another guy id keep it locked up and throw away the key.

 

I think you have something called "autogynephilia" (google it) which means that you worship women's beauty and kind of wish you could step into their skin and experience it.

Many guys like this become transgender but it is not the same as "traditional" transgenderism where the guy felt like and looked like and dressed like a girl even in childhood.

This explains why you don't have a desire to be sucked off or fuck a guy because being a bottom and a sucker, you are actually living out the life of a woman through your eyes.

 

when I first read this I was like wtf, read too much into it. But actually, it's possibly true.

My guess would be too, that because you are presumably dominant with your girlfriend (I just mean, as in, you wear the trousers and you're fucking her, not that you're rough or anything) and you're so manly in your day to day life, that you need the inert femininity that comes with being a bottom.

In short, you don't need to come out right now. Not while you have a girlfriend, because what will she think? She presumably knows you better than most, and spends the most time with you. If she suddenly percieves you in a different way, then it could effect your relationship.

I would come out when you're single, but that's just me.

 

Sounds like a highly complicated situation you've gotten yourself into.
You definitely and quite genuinely fear the reactions of others and I wonder how much of a reputation you have where ever you live to fear coming out. It sounds like your family will accept you, despite your change in status, so I wouldn't be too concerned that they will shun you. For your girlfriend and best friend, well, perhaps it is time to be truthful to them. You may lose a best friend and a girlfriend, but what you gain is the confidence to stand up on your own instead of hiding in the closet. Will you face challenges? Of course, that's immediately to be expected, especially when one doesn't understand you (which, for your best friend, sounds like the case). Is it worth burying yourself in a closet to make everyone else happy? Not really. Someone will eventually catch on that you're not happy about something, and things may go downhill from there. However, what ever you decide to do, ensure that you protect yourself at all times. There are too many diseases going around these days and dishonest people who don't understand how protection is the best way to keep oneself safe. All the best to you.

 

P.F.L.A.G. for Life!

Your parents may have said what they said because they noticed a detail unhidden to a parent (such as a hunch) sit down with them alone and tell them straight and pick their brains as to how to handle your siblings. Sometimes parents are a better buffer than you know as we know our children individually and just remember there are many of us parents that care more about our children than weighing in their choices and judging? The longer you hide the more ground you'll have to make up in the long run, take pride and respect in yourself and speak up!

 

I would not tell anyone! I am Bisexual and neither of my three Ex wives ever suspected. None of my friends know. I have kept my secret for too many years to count! I am 59 now! I sucked my first adult cock when i was 13.

 

I have been sucking and fucking cock since I was 10, my straight guy friends have no clue that I am Bi, and I have no reason or plans to tell any of them, whats the point? Live your life the way you want, unless you are obsessed with telling people or you are in love with a guy (at which point I would say "yes you are gay"), there is really no reason to bring it up.

 

I think u should come out and let the whole world know

 

You are 19 years old you cannot possibly have it all figured out by now. So I would carry on as now for while and experiment with your sexuality. There is no need to make any big statement just carry on enjoying and exploring.

Slut!

Thinskin

 

The only people who need to know how you like to fuck are people affected by how you like to fuck. That's generally just people you're fucking. Unless you're picking out China patterns with your top and want to let your folks know where you're registered, they don't need to know. I like fucking my wife's ass and jerking off on camera for women/men/couples. Only person who needs to know that us my wife.

 

I am Bi courous so is my GF wife dosn't know it. won't tell her.. Wish you the best with the GF and family

 

It seems society is obsessed with labels. Why pigeon hole ur self. And like others b 4 have said its nobody else s business who u sleep with. But i have to say cheating on ur GF is a different matter altogether. whether male or female.

 

Also, whether or not you love cock, a homophobic best friend ain't cool. Help him change or find new friends

 

I agree. Whatever you do it is important to not allow prejudice, only hurts us all, gay, straight, black or white.

 

Just to be clear, my gf and I were not together at time I had sex with those two men.

 

Not if you have Agoraphobia...

 

I have achrachnaphobia :excited: