Under reasons I wont explain now and probably never will on an internet forum, something terrible just went through my life. 11 days after I give her the ring she throws it in my fucking face and takes her clothes I bought for her and went out of my house. She told me her dad was waiting for her and she was moving away somwhere far, far away. I dont know what I did wrong. But all I know is if I could change what ever it is I did, I would fix it. The heartbreak is so bad right now being locked in my room actually crying. Something I havent done since I was twelve years old. Her cell phone is still here so she really is getting away from me. I just hope to god she sees this and sees that I love her and always will. Im going to try making stories but I dont know if theyll be good. Im fucking broken down, depressed, and I want to die. I just wanted you to know that seven was the last story in the series. And I really wished it wasnt.
Sorry for dumping this on you too. I just had to get it out.

 

Sorry to hear about your troubles. My advice is easier said than done. Forget about her. If she is of the frame of mind to hold you in such regard, I would venture to guess you can never completely change her back to where you want her. There is nothing you can do or change about yourself to matter. People sometimes just feel like they need to overhaul their lives. In a world of such choices and possibilities, it’s easy to think: Maybe there is a better life I can make for myself elsewhere.” She is obviously very calloused in her method of breaking things off from you. She has access to your higher emotions right now, and was rather violent with them. The easiest way to try and put her out of your mind is to find another girl (emotions detached) that you can distract yourself with.

 

When I was under 22 I had this happen to me with girls I loved dearly. I never knew the reasons either, even though one is still in contact with me. I don't have the gall to ask her.

In both cases I cried also, and didn't even look at girls or go out for 3 years.

And when my 2nd wife died suddenly it was the same way. For 3 years I just withdrew from life, and cried a lot.

I don't think they have any idea of the effect they can have on us, or maybe they just don't care. I don't know.

Just keep telling yourself that it is not the end of the world, even though it seems like it. You will have other loves and sometimes they are a gift from heaven you would never have expected.

 

Aw, Austiman ... I'm sorry.

 

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Im very sorry to hear this. Hope you take care and look after yourself

 

Im okay I guess. I just got really fucking high though so I felt kind of alright. But I regret it now.

 

Sorry to hear it man. If you need someone to talk to we're(or at least me) here for you

 

Sorry to hear that.

 

Sorry to hear about it. It sucks but it will pass.

People suck!!!

Nice people swallow

 

I'm so sorry to hear about your problems, they do get better!!! However, it takes a while!!! There's nothing wrong with a good cry, it cleanses your soul....Hang in there!!! I'm sending you a cyber hug!!!:rose:

 

Im begining to feel better. My dad took the ring back for me so now I have a nice chunk o change back. I was stoned out of my fucking skull with my friends for three days. I regret it in a way, but I dont care still. The pain is still there, but people comforting me really helps. Thanks to you all.

 

If you’ve read many of my other post you’ll know I am far from an anti drug advocate, but I did think this is something that may be of interest.

When I was 18 the court “recommended” I went to these meetings for substance abuse twice a week for a few hours. There were some pretty hardcore people there and parts of it were actually pretty interesting. One part of it that that seemed to hold true to me was: Whenever life gives you pain, it breaks you down. This broken you is forced to learn humility and the value of others. When you diffuse your pain through substances you never fully adapt to the swings of life. You put a bandage on your pain and the emotional you is never developed, in fact it subsides. They went into a bit more of a metaphor that I thought had a bit of a child-like element, but I thought the idea held true. For quite a while anything that didn’t have anything to do with drugs was rather melon collie. Luckily, I eventually found a girl who wanted to fuck about 7 times every day and I was able to wean myself off.

I’m not suggesting you are an addict or in need of any change in your life. I’m just saying you may be missing out on some valuable pain.

 

Haha

I just realized that my post is pretty much contradiction of the one I made a few days ago. Thank you for the topic. It helped me draw those two thoughts together.

 

im so sry, just take care of yourself and remember that this event will lead to many other oppertunities that this mysterious world has to offer....good luck and i can safely assume that we are all here to help and talk with you if you want.

 

While I'm sure everyone here is very nice and all that, a porn forum is the LAST place I'd ever go for emotional support. Grab a female friend, take her out for coffee, and let someone who genuinely cares help you!

Love Always,
ixi

 

that may be, but it is the thought that counts, and if you have no where else to turn, you have the people here willing to help

 

Checking in

How are you doing Austi?

 

Scared. She hasnt called me ever. And Remember how I said I got high? Ive never really came down. I cant focus, My head is a mess. I fucked up. I fucked up big time.

Thank you though. Im done with drugs now. I just felt as though I needed it when I knew in my mind I didnt.

 

A three day high is not possible. Your just only stuck in this mental state because your mind is set on attempting to feel better.

Sorry to hear about your loss. So shall we take you to the strip club now or later?

 

I kept repeating the mental state thing in my mind repeatedly and It helped clear out the fog. Im beginning to not think about her as much. Its been a hard 18 days but I think Im beginning to feel better. I shaved! I went out for coffee and got hit on so that was kinda nice. It was rough remembering that I couldnt tell her I had a girlfriend because I dont. I just hit on her back and polished off my coffee and left. Its been a hard few days, But with you guys I know the blow has been softened. So thanks alot.