Let me clarify one thing. I DO NOT have any legal reasons to be secretive about my sex life. It's purely a reputation and career thing. That said, it's a pride thing. I can never work a day in my life again and still provide, but I came out of the ashes of my self induced implosion to having a career I like and people around me who don't whisper behind my back or berate me of my past.

 

My first time i was 17,the guy was in his late 30s....it was fast,painful,and not romantic or arousing in the least.Dont think it has affected my attitude towards sex though

 

I wish Peace, Love and Happiness sincerely

 

My first time was quick and wouldn't fill a paragraph but I think it was normal, we were both young. I think this might be important, sharing your first time with someone of a similar age, will only a little more experience. It's normally already a confusing stage in life and crossing this bridge definitely has potential to be traumatic. I went back and forth, taking longer each time but without damage and therefore It has no bearing on who I am now.

Can I say though, I would of been very open to being seduced by an older cousin. In fact at that early age, you might possibly be the only male in history, despite many a wise introduction to life, that wouldn't of put his new toy into any willing participant. I take my hat off to you and acknowledge again your thoughts from another thread regarding education.

 

I have yet to experience my first time, :/

 

if that is you in your avatar, you won't have to wait long

 

when I was younger homosexuality was illegal. so when I had sex with a woman I liked it, and thought this is for me. I later found out that wasn't the case at all. first time with a man changed the world for me.

 

That could be true

 

As a relative newcomer to the computer itself and this being the only chat room I have participated in thus far, and having already felt I have sometimes been too harsh or casual with my thoughts, I am now more concerned after reading the above. If your gentle manner, which seams unbiased and without prejudice, requires an apology - then I must be Mr Angry himself. I also don't get the innuendo behind the forum rules your hiding behind (He's behind you!). This used to be fun! Apart from the obvious errors of my ways, and my reluctance to 'pm', someone please tell me if I'm a rebel without a cause, like right now, - should this be a new thread or a pm or simply time to go to bed. I apologize for not understanding your apology.

 

It was a misquoted, misunderstood subject brought about by one of my associates here that was handled through P.M. in which I answer all of my objectors. Unlike others I don't like calling out anyone here in public if I can help it, be assured it was resolved as far as it could be and all is good.

 

For me, it proved my iron resolve that I cannot bring myself to have sex with people who are unable to give 100 percent consent due to being under the influence of anything. I did make her squirt 4 or 5 times using my hand, which salvaged the situation.