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  1. newday4me

    newday4me Porn Star

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    Hey, Suzy! I've been out of touch for 6 days and just got back here. Too bad about the issues............hope all is well. :kiss:
     
  2. Suzygurl

    Suzygurl Brazen in Heels

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    :sigh:

    I tried to stay away, I really did. I haven't worn panties or a skirt for 3 months. I kept telling myself I could be man, not a sissy, but the longer I went, the more I kept dreaming about becoming Suzy again. So, once again, the male part of me loses to the sissyslut part.

    Doesn't seem like much has changed here, but I have to admit that the first thing I noticed is that I haven't gotten a pm from anyone since I left. So much for "admirers", I guess--either nobody noticed I was missing or no one cared enough to pm and ask why. While that's disappointing, I guess it also tells me that I had become exactly what I fantasized about being: a disposable little whore to be used by real men and then tossed aside when I stopped pleasing them. The lesson is, if your purpose in life is to please men, the only way you'll get the attention you crave is to keep giving them what they want. Thinking they care about you as a person is foolish, because the only thing they're really interested in is how you can get them off. So, it looks like it's time to go back to miniskirts, spike heels and getting on my knees.
     
    1. Marvin65
      Suzy, yes I should have PMed you. Two thoughts kept going through my head during your absence.
      1. That real life had totally got in the way.
      2. That something dreadful had happened to you.
      I am glad that you are OK.
       
      Marvin65, Jan 4, 2016
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    2. SissyKimmie
      I've been trying to stay away too dear and k ow what you are going through. Sissy sisters stay together. :)
       
      SissyKimmie, Jan 5, 2016
  3. Suzygurl

    Suzygurl Brazen in Heels

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    No worries, Marvin. It's just a lesson learned--I'm entertainment, nothing more. No difference between exposing myself here and being a pair of lips behind a glory hole.
     
    1. Hush
      That is a terrible thing to say, and more so wrong. Life is about ups and downs. When down start working things back up to how you want them to be. When up, climb even higher. Seriously, having that attitude and making yourself feel it can save your life and soul. I'll not sully your thread with my past just simply know if I could overcome my rough patches you can yours.

      In the end however, only you are cheated and lose out if you don't........and other folks opinions on your life don't mean squat in your life.

      Hush...an alias
       
      Hush, Mar 14, 2016
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  4. toddh1970

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    Well if it's any consolation sweetie thank you for cumming back. Once a sissy always a sissy after all!!! Lol
     
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  5. Suzygurl

    Suzygurl Brazen in Heels

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    Thank you, sugar. I have to admit that I'm torn: The fact that nobody seemed to notice or care that I wasn't around suggests that the only reason guys made a fuss over me before was because I was feeding their fantasies and getting them off and when I disappeared they moved on to the next slut who could please them. The down part of it is that any illusion that my "admirerers" cared about me is gone. The good part is that it means I'm sexy enough to feed their fantasies and get them off. Anyone who has read my posts knows that I would love to accept a role as a compliant sissy sextoy servicing a nice, dominant master and his friends, who only care about how often I can make them cum. In that situation, I'd know that if I stopped being a perfect slut they wouldn't have much use for me, which would make it important to behave as they wanted. In a way, I guess that's what I was doing...the guys pretending to care about me were using me as a virtual sextoy and if I want their attention I need to keep giving them what they want. So, I guess in a way they were giving me exactly what I deserved/wanted. Being welcomed back means they (not necessarily you, so don't be offended if that's not where you're coming from) are happy their virtual slut is back to get their rocks off. What more could a gurl like me ask?
     
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  6. young&ready

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    Suzy, I hope you don't mind me sending this to you. I have been reading your thread and have concluded that you are a very experienced sissy, which I love. I am only 19 and love dressing like a slut.
    I have been in a relationship with a married woman of 47 years old. Her husband had a bad accident and couldn't perform for her. He agrees with our relationship. In August past, when I was 18, she told me she wanted to pursue her lesbian tendencies. I had been getting turned on bi gay vids on the internet and felt I would like to pursue my gay feelings.
    She put an advert in Craigslist and we met a married bi couple in their fifties.
    To cut the story short, The wife of the couple took me up to her bedroom one night, shaved my body, dressed me in girly lingerie, stockings, heels, wig and make-up. My god that just blew my young mind. When I saw myself in a mirror I couldn't believe it was me. She took me downstairs and for the first time in my life, I was fucked by a man, her husband. [For a number of weeks previously she prepared my ass-hole for cocks, with vibrators, until I was feeling no pain].
    What ever happened to me that night, I have become obsessed with being dressed as a slut. They introduced me to friends who loved me dressed and the men fucked me, while I sucked other's cocks. I think I am now addicted to this life-style.
    In October I left home for university. I have bought a range of lingerie and a couple of wigs, heels and stockings along with make-up. Going out at nights, [not dressed as slut] I found a gay bar which has toilets used by men for sex. After a few visits I went dressed in all my girly clothing, and what an eye-opener that has been for me. I have made many friends there, and believe me they are mostly married men, and they use me to satisfy their depraved lusts. I am groped, kissed, fucked by a few every night I go and I love it. I just can't get enough, I can't stay away.
    I know I am being used, and as you say, when they are satisfied they will toss me aside. But I know others will take their place.
    My reason for writing to you is to ask if this will addiction will decrease over a few months or years or will it get more intense as I get older. I feel I must take control of the situation I find myself in, as I don't want to ruin my career before it even starts. [I am studying Pure and Applied Mathematics along with Quantum Physics].
    I love the life-style and don't want to stop, but at the same time I don't want to lose control of myself.
    Can you help me with advice based on your experience please?
    You seem a very level headed, mature thinking person and I will respect what you think of me at this stage in my life.
    I hope I haven't offended you by contacting you in this way. If I have I apologise and will not continue to contact you.
     
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  7. toddh1970

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    I think we both know that men only want to cum, but I have been watching and waiting for you to tell us where you been all this time and what you been doing, have you been a good gurl or not!!!
     
  8. Suzygurl

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    Wow, I'm not sure where to start on this. I'm not sure you intended it to be a post in the thread. Sounds more like you intended to PM me, which I think would be a better way to discuss this. If so, you can PM me any time to talk.

    First, I'm not sure I can give you much advice, other than the obvious: You need to be careful out there. Please make sure you're being safe--having that many partners (most of whom you don't really know) is a formula for diseases or worse.

    Second, I can't predict how your "addiction" will play out, but the fact that you view it as such is a little disturbing to me. It suggests that you recognize it may be destroying your life, but that you feel powerless to resist it. If that's the case, you might want to consider seeking help from a qualified professional instead of just some anonymous stranger on a porn-site message board. You're 19, and your sex-life thus far has been shaped by a coupleof much older women. It's way too easy for someone like you to be victimized by someone like that into accepting what they teach you as "all there is" when there's also and engtirely different world out there waiting for you. If you've really found the life-style you want, more power to you, but I can't help wondering if it might also be that you were an impressionable, naive young guy who was psuhed into something by those older women. In any event, it's way, way too early for you to throw away your future. If you're studying Applied Math & Quantum Physics, you clearly have a high level of intelligence. You must also have a significant interest in those areas, because that isn't something you study on a whim. I think you need to look at this "addiction" the same way you'd look at a drug or gambling addiction. You need to ask yourself, "What's most important to me? Do I want to risk losing my professional dreams because of this life-style? Or is it worth losing all those dreams if I can just keep getting fucked in restrooms?" If you've read through this thread, you probably know that I'm in a profession where being known as a sissyslut (or even just a crossdresser) would be a disaster. I've made my choice: I've worked too hard to get where I am to throw it all away for some sexual thrills, so I take every precaution I can to not let that happen. Maybe that's not the route you want to take, and I certainly won't condemn you if that's the case. However, as young as you are, I really think you need to remember that you may be making decisions that will affect you for the next 60 years. If you concentrate on school and your professional goals now, there isn't anything to stop you from deciding later that being a barslut is more important and then following that route. However, if you let your "addiction" control you now, you probably won't get a second chance at that profession later.

    Again, please don't hesitate to contact me through a PM if you want to discuss this in more depth or in privacy.
     
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      Thank you Suzy for your excellent response. I will PM you.
       
      young&ready, Jan 9, 2016
  9. Suzygurl

    Suzygurl Brazen in Heels

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    Ummmmm, I said I haven't worn panties or a skirt for 3 months. What do you think?
     
    1. toddh1970
      I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings but I was asking what you were doing while you were gone. We're you working or had a family problem to solve. That sort of thing.
      Sometimes I think about going back to my life as a man but I'm happier as a woman and isn't that what's important.
       
      toddh1970, Jan 27, 2016
  10. Suzygurl

    Suzygurl Brazen in Heels

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    :sigh: another promise to myslef to stay away and here I am again.

    Before anyone asks, no, there have not been any new ventures. As Suzy has pressed harder to be released, she's overcoming my ablility to resist. So, I've made a deal with myself I am not going out again until I'm proud of my body. Yeah, I've been passing, but passing is not "desirable", and I don't want to settle for being the frumpy woman men ignore. The first step is losing weight, so I'm determined not to go out until I can wear a slinky, tight dress instead of the baggy sweaters I've had to wear. So far, I'm down almost 10 pounds, but I've still got a ways to go.
     
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  11. racer cx

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    thats great keep working
     
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  12. Marvin65

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    Congrats on the weight loss. Keep up the good work. I'm sure that you will be sexy as hell in no time.
     
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  13. SissyKimmie

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    Bravo Suzy. Im trying to do the same with losing weight but i myself am struggling. Youre an inspiration.
     
  14. Suzygurl

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    Thanks, Kimmie. 10 down 10-15 more to go (hard to tell, since it's more about shape than actual weight). Are you on a weight-loss plan or just winging it?
     
  15. SissyKimmie

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    Im actually just winging it. I had lost over 60 at one point years ago but put it back on. Now im trying to lose it and get a figure
     
  16. Kinkyboi077

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    Hey Suzi I get instant hard on thinking abt you n your life style. Want to be ur sissy boi...
     
  17. Suzygurl

    Suzygurl Brazen in Heels

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    Why would I want a sissy boi? What would I do with one? I don't think you quite understand me.....
     
  18. PlZg1Ve

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  19. Suzygurl

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    :giggles nervously: I hope you like what you find.
     
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  20. Suzygurl

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    Hi, everyone...just checking in. It's hard to believe that it's been almost a year since my last "adventure". Part of that is my fault--I decided I was getting out of control and I needed to stop (or at least cutback), but then time just disappeared. Work and family matters both got crazy and there just hasn't been any time to do the things I really want to do for months. It wasn't too bad for a while, but lately it seems like all I can think about is how to find a chance for some Suzy time. I desperately want to put on a skirt and heels and go for a stroll through the mall, and I don't mean in my "business woman" outfit. I want to put on my teeny tiny miniskirt and my 5" heels and show how proud I am of my legs and ass. I want every woman who sees me to be jealous and I want every man who sees me to want me.

    FWIW, I've also noticed a change in my fantasies during this forced layoff. It used to be that the idea of strutting around turning guys on was enough. Slowly, I started to imagine myself actually interacting with a guy, and even blowing him. But, those fantasies never included what I saw as "more intimate contact". For example, as silly as it might sound, I actually thought that even if I might blow a guy, there was no way I could kiss one. But, now it's like Suzy is screaming to get out and she doesn't want to do it part way. She wants to be taken in a man's arms, hugged and kissed until she totally and completely surrenders to her passion and begs to be fucked. So, now, I have no idea what to do: like I said, I'm dying to dress up and go out and every day that I don't do it, the desire gets stronger. But, I'm also terrified that if I do, I won't be able to control Suzy the way I have in the past. If I let her back into my life, she may very well be stronger than my male side and she might not let go until I've become some guy's sissy toy. Even worse is the fact that as I typed that, the first thought that occurred to me is "Would that be so bad?"
     
    1. Hard78
      We need pics... Yes, I am so so very lonely, I am a person who loves to hug (but if I go around hugging for the sake of hugging, I will be viewed as a pervert) I just love the feel of a cute persons nice warm skin against me...
       
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