Hey Suzy, it's been a loooong time since I've heard, or even saw a post from you. I will definitely welcome you back, and remember, there's no pressure here. If you feel you need to take your time, then take all the time you need.

I've tried a few times to get rid of Stacie. Like you, I'm realizing it's not going to happen. I don't get to dress as much as I'd like. That's fine. I'm also preparing for when I will dress.

Just remember, even though this is a porn forum, you do have some friends here, and if you need to someone to talk with, just message.

 

I enjoyed the read very much

 

Thanks, gurlfriend, I appreciate it. I know you understand exactly how I feel.

I need to pretend to be a man for lots of reasons, and letting the locals know about my female side would be disastrous, so I've tried and tried to push it away. But, like they say, "You can't hope to stop Suzy, you can only hope to contain her."

 

I'm glad.

 

Interesting story of yours and your adventures so far. I'll keep an eye on this thread as you update it. If you're up to it, I'd enjoy knowing you more privately. Thanks for sharing darling, look forward to more.

 

Suzy
I realize and understand that during the holidays with all your family around you have to hide your femme side. I hope that you are succeeding with your diet, even though I think that women with curves are hot. It is all a matter of personal preference. I can't wait to read Suzy's new adventures in the new year

 

Thanks, Marv. I don't mind having curves--it's just that I want those curves to look like an hourglass, not an apple.

 

I'm always "up" for nearly anything, Sweetie. You can PM me anytime, as can anyone else---one of the reasons I started this thread was to get my feelings and thoughts out in public rather than hide them inside as I had for years. I'm always happy to chat about them with someone who is interested (or to get more adventurous with PMs for those who are REALLY interested ).

 

It can't be easy trying to hide who you really are. I take it from your previous comments that you don't live in the most supportive of environments. I can only imagine how difficult that might be. I won't pretend to understand the challenges you face on a daily basis. I will, however, offer an ear should you ever need to talk. I wish you all the best.

 

Thank you. Yes, it does get frustrating needing to be "on guard" all the time. Unfortunately, I chose my career before I was able to understand and accept all my urges. By the time I understood the Suzy part of myself, it was too late to change that, and exposure of that side of me would certainly crash my life. My income would disappear for sure, and it's not like my conservative family would jump up to support me. But, life is what it is. All I can do is be cautious about where and when I let Suzy out to play.

 

I suppose we all face challenges in our lives. What defines us is how we meet those challenges.

 

Given the choice, I'll face them in a miniskirt and spike heels, thank you.

 

My very first nite was a crazy one i used to score coke from this madame back on the She said i could huy as much as i wanted if i filled in for a bit at first i didnt get it i just started doing lines lil ones at first thaen rails mid way then she came over with this glass looking pipe @& ask me if i ever free based i told her no
She put a couple of wat looked like white cheesse in th pipe she lid it & told me to in hale slowly Dammmmmm That shit raced thru my body I was hella high then she asked me if i would work for her that nite she would pay me in dope or money i took half & half I thought i was going to be fucking these older ladies i used to see there no she took me to the back rdressing room put that pipe in my face a cople of more times & i was done i looked like a chineese bar girl in a tigh corset the dress was blue silk short
Corset with black stockings & heels wig & make up at first i wanted to get out of there but she Gave me all kinds Powder to relaze me then finnaly one more bigg ass hit from the glass dick & i was done She she took me to the room where all these older men were at With girls old enough to be there grandaughyers there rubbing them Down on there cock & doing lines She paraded me around in that room like i was a head of cattle as i passed by each & every one there They all stuck their hands up my dress & were fingering my ass & pulling my cock All the way back so my cock looked ready
& hard i was so fucked up by then all i wanted was more coke she layed e dow on a bunch of big pillow on the floor P & started kissing & really being sexy ive never done that & infront Pepole i didnt even know ?????
I was in a coke daze she was setting me up for the kill She unboton my dress Pulled my cock out of my black pantys & was squeeing my cokck real hard Then she lifts her dress up & had this big fucking dong hanging down her leg
She was auctioning me of as a peice of meat Like i said before yhe pipe kept cumming around & i was getting hard They wanted to see Her fuck the shit out of me So i was already dressed high as hell & didnt give a shit by then she helped me get up Guided me this coffee table Bent me over & whissped that it was going to feel really good & at first it did But by the time the room was done with me i was a used up hooker i think it lasted 2 days But yea i got turned out & still luv the feelin of getting banged out like that Im just a lil bit older now
But yea I was tricked out like a 3 dollar boll Bit i got the fucking of my life !!!!

 

Thanks for sharing, Slippery. Now the big question: Was the experience enough to convince you that you should spend more time as a woman?

 

Hah... That certainly would not be the first time it's happened!

Suzy,
I read all of your posts on & off for a long time now, and never felt I had anything to say... but I admire your bravery for trying to live your life as you want.

If you can pass without any one noticing, why don't you extend your time dressed as suzy... Live your life as you wish, even to the extent of having documents of you as "suzy" - just in case.

I know in certain states they will allow you to dress however you want for your Drivers' license. Or go to a neighboring state, and have Suzy go to the DMV there so she can get her OWN drivers' license. You could use a friends' address, if necessary.

Or is there some reason why you must revert back to your Dr. Jekyll (or Clark Kent) personality as everyone knows you?

 

Animal,

First of all, thank you for the kind comments.

I wish being Suzy full-time (or even half the time) was that easy. Unfortunately, the world is not that kind. Without getting into too many details, my profession requires constant dealing with people and maintaining a certain "image" for them. On top of that, I live in a very "conservative" community. I can't just show up for work as Suzy...it would take about 2 minutes to lose my career. Even if I got picked up for DUI while dressed as a man, because of my profession, the story would make the newspapers here and, while that wouldn't "end" my career, it would jeopardize it. If the story also included that I was wearing a miniskirt and 5" heels when I was stopped, it would be professional suicide. The fact that I had a picture of myself as Suzy on my driver's license wouldn't help matters--in fact, it would make it worse (not to mention that I sometimes have to show my driver's license to establish my "male" identity). And, if I illegally got a license from another state, that would only create another level of risk--again, if that was discovered, it would not only make the newspapers, it would become a front-page story.

Before you suggest it, I know finding a new way to earn a living is the idealistic way to handle the situation, but life isn't that easy. I spent a long time qualifying for this profession, and I just can't throw it away so that I can get a job at Walmart (nothing against those who work at Walmart, but it's not what I spent my life preparing for). So, until I get to the point where I don't have to worry about work, I'll have to retain my Clark Kent status.

 

I can certainly understand having to maintain your CLARK KENT personality - I was not trying to diminish it's importance. However, I also didn't understand that you were such a visible person in society that being discovered would turn the discovery itself into a media circus for you.

Albeit my intent was to offer a way for you to live your life as SUZY, far from the prying eyes of your immediate surroundings.

Travelling far from your circle of friends and acquaintances would afford you, in my eyes, a way to live freely as SUZY - even if only for a little while.

I *NEVER* suggested you live as SUZY around your immediate circle of friends, clients and Co-workers. Unless you like taking RISKs, I wouldn't even suggest doing so to an enemy of mine.

I grew up in New York City but I now live in a very conservative part of the country - So NO, I more than understand keeping SUZY a secret.

Establishing another identity in another state was only one way, albeit with a documentation. But while it did offer a chance to make SUZY real... I did not mean for you to use your "own" information to establish this identity. There are SO many ways you could "create" a life for SUZY while not having any connection to you, except for a photo. Search for "identity thieves" and you'll learn just how easy it is to create a "person" with so little connection to yourself.

Many have done it before you, for nefarious reasons. I was only suggesting it as a way for you to have peace with yourself, and give SUZY a place and time for her to live freely - even if only for moments at time.

Even going away on vacation to another land or another state, would afford you an opportunity to live as SUZY while having little risk of being found out. Although only for a week or 2 at a time, you could act and dress as you wished. Then come back home as CLARK KENT.

For all intents and purposes, SUZY could accompany you as your mistress - She just wouldn't be seen as long as CLARK KENT was around while on your vacation.

 

Thanks, Animal. I have often thought about a "road trip" as Suzy. I think it would be fantastic to check into a hotel someplace a couple hundred miles from home, change into Suzy and spend a week as a woman. On the few occasions that I've had a chance to spend several days that way here, it's been so much fun, even though I had to look over my shoulder constantly, worrying about who I was going to bump into, so an entire week when I could just relax and let Suzy go would be amazing. The biggest "downside" might be that when it was over, I'd have to go back to the real world and face the depressing idea of changing back into pants.

 

Thanks Suzy

 

yumm could you dm me a pic?