my new Years Resolution isnot to be As much as I may want it to end, it wont. She tries convincing me that she doesnt need his cock but that is the biggest ongoing lie coming out of her mouth. She knows damn well she cant quit on her own and for me to do it will surely bring on a huge argument at the very least, and could easily end up with a prison term. That being said , today sunday January 22nd she went over there for a quick half hour session and brought back an audio recording of her continued love for this mans cock. So she tells me not to play with myself so she can when shes back. Well she didnt act like she wanted anything to do with mine , and apparently he busted all over her face and chest and down her throat. So anyway.... Im left with no action and we just went out to eat and I think she has already fallen asleep out in the living room.... more to come...... So we actually did fuck... for about 5 minutes so then she got off me and held the base while i beat off.making me cum by repeatedly telling me how great his cock is and that she cant stop on her own and that she has tried but her need just gets stronger to where she starts getting mad at me and quits fucking me. This is the behavior to expect which leads to more lies and cheating. January 27th, Last night we actually went to bed planing on playing. This was initiated by her mainly because she was horny all day. While I was still at work she texted him just to find out he already has plans and lets hook up tomorrow. So anyway, we were watching videos and she is playing with her toy as I make sure there is atleast 1 BBC video on a computer. She holds out her pussy from me letting me beat my little meat. Then she passes out on top of me so i cant even take care of myself. So now i am just waiting for her to get off work because im sure its on, he has already texted her this morning, And from what she was telling me last night she needs it, craves it and is the one thing that is always behind every orgasm she has.. whether she is fantasizing while fucking me or getting the real thing. So stay tuned because friday night and its the second time since he has been back so I have a feeling its gonna be a top notch. So here it is sunday the 29th and as bad as she wanted it, it was not to be. Nor did I get any. I put on a porno but when I came to bed she was sound asleep so I beat my self to sleep. Tuesday the 31st of january and after her texting him for the last 3 days , He finally clears a hour and a half to destroy her pussy again. He pounded away on her box for a good hour and a half before dumping his seed all over her back. She came home and was in a daze. She carried on and on acting like she took some long vacation from his cock. I am thinking " bitch, its been 3 days, give me a break."... So anyways, today is friday and tho we were going to go to Parker Dam , Im pretty sure we arent going If we dont go I would be willing to bet it all on her going to get some BBC this weekend. I havnt gotten any pussy since the 29th . Which was 5 days ago. I know she needs to get fucked more than this and she isnt saving it up for me... So I am sure I will be adding more soon, so I guess ....until later....im going to rub my nub! Feb 7th Tuesday night and She still hasnt even remotely acted like she wants sex so this is day number 10 but wait a minute ....Alvin called at 840 pm and she is out the door by 855. She tells me to lock up my dick in chastity and to be ready when she gets back...Pffffttttt!!! ..All I know is she has been saving her pussy for him. I have been either cut off or major cut backs. At this point I am only getting it right after him if I get it all... since that day i have only gotten it once and today is sunday the 12th so it doesnt look like he is going to get any either...To me it is obvious he has a new piece of ass because he has all but forgot about her. I know this bums her out but she isnt trying any harder to get mine. So i am thinking I will probably get layed tonite...And leave her hanging like always... til the next time..... 2017 looks like a big cutback on BBC.... so its feb 23rd and we havnt had sex for 2 weeks atleast. mainly cause we have been sick. But he hadnt called for awhile so she sent him a text sying" so u found someone new huh" He denys it of course and trys setting something up for the weekend...but she is sick and she wasnt doing any shit so turned into a major cunt to me. We had a big time fight to the point that I sent dude a text telling him to quit calling her... We went back and fourth and he listened for 1 day. then he called her...that was yesterday the 22nd. So Im feeling kind of like the loyalty thing is gone between her and I when I jump in bed she starts sucking my dick well now we havnt done anything since I believe on the 9th. but she wasnt giving me any pussy in fact I asked her if she was saving it for him and she wouldnt answer . So I said if you are saving it for him finish me with you mouth. So she sucked like never before so I decided I wanted to make absolute sure and told her if you are saving that pussy for alvin and not giving me any than make sure you get those nuts. Without a second to waste she was lathering up my tiny balls with her saliva. So believe this...... today she will get back on alvins cock and I will be adding more to this then.....but for now ...off to work I go Sat feb25th, And Im pounding away for about an hour till at 3:45 am and she is getting so frustrated. I cant make her cum and I even started it off by going down on her. I was tongue then fuck then lick. And she was actually starting to get upset like I was doing it on purpose. So I reached over and grabbed her phone and without saying a word she grabbed it and texted him. Within 2 minutes he texts back so she gets off of me and pulls on some yoga pants and at 4:05 am she is out the door. When she returned she has her audio tape as proof that he made her cum continuisly from les than 2 minutes that it enters her she starts everytime. Here it is march 12th and we have fucked once since the last time... neither of us came and Alvin doesnt bang her anymore... So this looks like it will be the end of this Alvin thing and possibly me.... the end Wrong again March 22nd He texts and she drops it all ..... She said Im not going to like this recording because there is a lot of talking halfway thru it. So she has been avoiding coming in the room and she is holding out on the recorder. But what I do know that I had to ask her every question just to get her to say that it was as good as she remembers, he made her cum over and over and even squirted a few times. I cant get her to have an orgasm at all... well thats not totally true she did have a small one with me the other night but it quickly turned into me swimming in her and her telling me she is craving Alvins cock. Well I will add more when I hear the tape.... stay tuned A day later and I have still yet to hear the recording or get laid for that matter. She said she was still horny but hungout in the living room till 1 am went and took a shower then went to sleep. When I crawled in bed she wasnt trying to listen to it with me so she threw a leg and arm over me and had me pinned down so I couldnt even rub one out if I wanted to. So i am getting ready to climb in bed and she is already snoring.... stay tuned Sunday March 26th... I have still yet to hear the last recording and he text her while we were golfing. She didnt realize it until it was a hour and a half later but she replied and he told her he needed to his it again and that this would be a quickie. Well for him I guess thats true but when she returned she had a recording of what sounded like one continous orgasm and when she got home his jiz emptied out of her pussy soaking her pants completely with his massive load . so after a45 minute session she came home and later that night I got to try and fuck her but she was hollowed out ... she then just held down on the base without touching my dick and let me beat off till I came. She says she loves the fact that I jerk off to her recordings and insist that is the only way I am allowed to get off.... I used the chastity contraption for the third time also.... I will write more about that later. So here it is wednesday morning and she hasnt showed any interest in my penis whatsoever.. Cant blame her.... more to come sunday april 2nd into monday april 3rd.... thats right over 4 hours this session that she calls the second best ever. If so let me hear the first, cause personally I have never heard any session from anyone get the routing she got this time. I will add more about this later. bottom line.. She is completely hollow for me now . his cock has taken over her hole and its design and purpose is for bbc excluively...his in particular Friday. april 7th and when I get back from a fishing trip she heads over for some rod herself and here it is sunday and I am listening to it and her squirting all over his cock. when she had returned I was passed out but she was insistant on showing me how hollowed out her hole was and basically his load lubricated her hole(as if I needed lubrication). Anyway his cum was pouring out all over my little unit and after a few minutes it was obvious to her that she wasnt going to get to cum so she crawled off and held down the base while I finished myself off beating my dick as she was humiliating me and saying my dick is a joke in comparison. She tells me his soft cock is twice the size of my hard dick. There is nothing she would change about his cock. It is perfect in every way. Last night he was texting her and they set something up for later today so I will text more when it happens but meanwhile no pussy for me and I listen to these recording of this guy confiming ownership of his pussy that my girl has between her legs. . Sunday April 9th , She went over for a solid 2 hour session that like all the rest ... Listening to one orgasm after another almost sounds fake or maybe like she is in pain but anyhow when she gets home (1am) she showers and goes to bed so i jump in the shower, shave and groom myself and turn on a porno, grab the recorder and slide into bed. She instantly comes over and throws a leg and an arn over me like she does to pin me down as she falls asleep. Not this time I still managed to get my dick in my hand ..So this time she isnt going to hold the base or even really touch my dick.But she is awake and watched me jerk my dicklit and was acommenting when I squirted on my stomach. I thought he must of told her not to fuck me but she said no it was her decision. Well here it is a week later almost and weve had shitty sex once since then and now she is visiting her dad but made it clear who is getting the call when she returns... NOTE*** Thje thing that sucks the most about Alvin is that she no longer fantasizes with me. That part is long gone because its a reality for her. Never in our fantasies was I listening to a recorder. So it sucks that I am by myself now and we never play like we used to while fantasizing. Hell back then I could make her cum.... with toys of course ...but not anymore. Im sure there is more to come.... real soon Tuesday April 18th 8pm Well she is over there again and let me tell you she would have been there yesterday if she could have. She texted him yesterday when I was standing in the same room and then deleted the text and lied about it. Anyhow he was working but tonite he made it clear there is no work tomorrow. She hasnt fucked me since april 8th and has basically no interest in my dickclit, but said she might when she gets home so not to jack off and put on the chasity. So I am sitting her naked watching interracial porn of huge black guys giving white wives what people like me cant. A real pussy pounding. He has yet to fail her in bed ... in fact she has claimed it just keeps getting better. We will see if tonight iis any different... so stand bye one .........to be continued So superman strikes again.... after almost 4 hours he finally sends her home. And what a number he did on her pussy this time. She got on mine when we went to bed . Now mind you my little dick was locked up the whole time she was gone and she rode mine for maybe 5 minutes before just giving up and getting off of me... She promptly fell asleep with one arm and one leg over me. Like she always does. So in bed I ask her if she is ever going to stop fucking him and without hesitation she says no... She cant. I truely belive this to be the case. I remember a long time ago I asked her how important sex was to a relaitionship and she said it is the most important thing... So why is she still with me? I dont get it, I absolutely can not make her cum. She doesnt like fucking me and only does it out of guilt , she never sucks my dick but will suck him for hours evrytime she sees him. I either have to quit this or she does. Period bottom line.... to be continued Sunday april 23rd we just got back from camping and he had called a couple times and again today and she was super tired but still went over to catch his load. It took her less than a hour and she is back but now she wants to humiliate me and sit on my micro dick.... to be cont...so as i listen to the recording I discover that he nutted twice once down her throat and the next one in her and on her stomach. So the next day its monday and although she said her goal was to get it 3 more times this month and he was wanting it again today, she made up some reason not to go. I have no clue what thats about but it sure wasnt because she wanted to fuck me. So bet your ass tomorrow is as good as gold. At this point I really dont know what I could possibly do except deal with it she has had a cold that wont go away and even though he has been trying she hasnt gone. Well to my knowledge anyhow... So here it is ..... Saturday May 6th she gets her shit tuned up again... this coming after she has been sick for over 2 weeks. She hasnt fucked me but now she is feeling better. well good enough to fuck him just not me. She was there just over an hour may 8th and even though she and I stayed up all night partying and went fishing down on the beach he calls at 8 am and she is gone within a hour. She tells me to go ahead and enjoy myself so that basically means she wont want to fuck me when she gets back so go ahead a jerk off. Ive been instructed to only watch or listen to their previous sessions to nut to. So whenever i do get to relieve myself it is absolutely ONLY to the recordings of them fucking... i WILL ADD MORE WHEN I AM ABLE TO... more of the same is all I am hearing although this time he is hushing her trying to keep her quiet...also she came home with a hicky then tries saying its from me.She was over there for about an hour and a half and had nothing to do with me that night here it is sunday morning and she has already tried texting him as she was up on my dick getting all frustrated. Oh i got mine but she was far from getting hers so I am pretty sure he will be texting her back as soon as he gets a free minute. So of course I will be reporting back sooner than usual.... thursday may 11th at 10 pm she is there now again, We had sex once since their last meeting and it was right after he was done stretching out her pussy. She got bored with mine real quick and basically rode my face while I jerked off. She put it in her mouth a couple times for about 2 minutes total but she actually laughed at it . So she is there now and I will check back in when she is finished... Her request once again is for me to lock my dickclit up till she returns. So i will put it on now and watch movies of her and him and try not getting hard. to be continued Friday may 19th they have been texting back and fourth and it will go down tonite. Doesnt help my case any that we havnt fucked for a few days untill last night and I totally failed so stay tuned.... Ok so she ends up going there at 1 am and stays till after 5am. This comes after I told her to not spend the night. Well here it is sunday night and she and I still havnt fucked or talked about fridays session. The tape is kinda fucked but you can hear her when he is nailing it but what you cant make out is what all of the whispering was about. I hate that shit. Anyways, we went fishing today and back to work tomorrow real early. I will add more details whe Ive got them... Wed the 24th... Even know that we had sex the last 2 mornings...She still was at his house within an hour of him calling. She said she had a long day at work and was falling asleep out in the living room. She really thinks I believe her when she tells me that she isnt getting feelings for him... I mean come on.... she isnt happy around me unless other people are around. Not to mention she hates our sex. Every single thing that used to be our staple during sex has vanished. She goes thru the simple basics with me for some reason i dont know.... I am confused, disturbed,fucked up in the head, andI am not sure who i am these days. By most of all I am afraid of myself... I have only felt this way once before in my life. I am unsure, and feel like I have nothing to lose. ..... I will check back in when she returns ....possibly I will enter the dates later but since these entries she has been there twice for quickies. And today is the first day out of this month that she is going over there .... it is 1 am on saturday or early sunday June 4th and even though we had a pretty huge argument about her daughter all day today she is still heading over there. i will add more later.... but this is not good So lastnight she ended up driving there just to come right back because he fell asleep, but believe this that when he woke up she had texted him without me knowing how pissed she was ,so he apologizes and promises to make it up to her... So Sunday June 5th she goes over there at 330 and gets her pussy all fixed up for over 2 hours. She claimed to be so stressed out the last few days and when she returned all problems were erased. There was talk of her going back tonite but she declined for some reason but definetly not for my cock because you can hear her say over and over that she loves his cock and that he owns her pussy and can do whatever he wants whenever he wants and that it is truely his. So i am listening to it right now and the first 30 minutes they are definetly making love... after that is when he gets back to what he does best and that is securing his place in my girls pussy as the sole owner and provider of the deepest orgasms of her life. In fact i just heard her say it doesnt get any better than this. So how could that be when your doing it with someone you claim you dont love ...or have any feelings for? Bullshit !! thats what that is... 100% pure bullshit!! and she thinks I am buying it.. I have told her time and time again to quit the whispering shit but once again she is all about whispering her true feelings.. Bottom line ... There is no way of stopping this not a chance so basically I need to find someone else and when i do i am going to fuck both of them off.... Then they can have each other.... but until then I will keep jacking off.... Because the odds of me finding someone else that would put up with my tiny dick is pretty much nil.... So until next time ....im out. SJune 7th Just 2 days later and less then 24 hrs after I leave on a biz trip she goes back over there for a 3 hour romp . This after I tell her not to go and while she is there I called and texted her atleast 15 times just to be ignored. I even called him and texted him with threats that he shared with her and they both basically had a good laugh and then she just rubbed more salt in the wound by telling himHe is so amazing and take his pussy and she loves his cock. So listening to this tape you have to endure this for 2hours before he reads the messages and she responds byfucking him another hour with my calls coming thru on both their phones and she just keeps going she starts asking if im pissing him off and she want s his cum over her and its his pussy rightThen she starts whispering her love for hiscock. Alot of it cant be deciphered cause she is whispering so low.but one thing is for sure... She knew I was mad and that I was getting madder by the minute and still she kept egging him on and belittling me behind my back as she would get orgasms one after another. At one point she says that she is so dead but didnt care.... this recording and the circumstances are truely eye openig into the real peson she is. No holds barred and nothing to hide she lets it all out and gives it all to him.. Then when I get c back in town she wants me to believe she will never hook up with him again. First off I dont believe she would or could go without it and 2nd , if i tried enforcing it , do u think she would hate me. so its like this now ... way awkward and she making empty promises and with me... I am still going to get him and get him good . believe that So june 25th yea its been almost 3 weeks but as it turns out they were just letting me cool down and I made a comment that its over but wouldnt you know it ... he calls at 1am and she heads over there... she was back an hour later but then the next day he contacts her again cuz she left her glasses there and after a few texts back and fourth the plans are made for one of his super hero sessions. So she gets all cleaned up puts on this loose sundress with heels over a some tiny black lace panties. She heads out of here and tells me she is going to pick up her glasses and get fucked real good. But the last second he calls it off... his girlfriend must have showed up. Last night I didnt get any and she was planing on holding out again tonite but now who knows. I may not even want any plus she is hanging out in the living room .....standard...... but I am sure he will contact her tomorrow and tell her he will make it up to her.......more to cum ...you can bet on it................. Tuesday June 27th Well it didnt take Nostradomis to predict that one... Thats right for the third day in a row she is over there . We are all pretty confident she is going to get her pipes cleaned tonite. I must make a note that she shows no interest at all in bed with me. Tonight she wore this black and white super lowcut top and it went down a little over mid thigh with heels over a sexy gstring ive never seen before and a push up bra.. This guy gets the girl I never see here at home but then again i cant reward her with an 11 inch cock can I .. So she left at 830 and pretty much guaranteed she wont be getting home till after midnight for sure. So I am just going to do what I do best and thats play with my little pathetic joke of a dick and wait around. More to cum July 2nd Sunday.. . She has to work monday but she goes over there and gets her bell rang till after 1 am So its very clear listening to it and you can hear her getting throttled... She came home saying he is getting feelings and wants to go away for the weekend I say not a chance. So anyway she came back and rode me for about 5 minutes till i nutted. She kinda laughed as she got off me. The following day and he is trying to get her over there but we were cleaning up getting ready for party. thursday july 6th She went over there a little after 8 and didnt get back till after 11 She texted him when she got home with a wow but thats pretty much all i got from it because the tape player reached the end ...so i got 38 minutes and 20 of them were her sucking on him and ten of them was here walking up and small talk... so who knows but all I do know is that come Saturday and he is texting her wanting her and I qoute ""pussy pulsating on his cock" She strings him along all day and night then falls asleep just to wake up to him telling her to get there for his cock. Well this time she committed to going there tonite when its dark and cooler. I want to make a note that she and I havnt had sex for a while and friday night after our showers I slid in to bed with a raging hard on and slipped it right in and within 3 minutes she was snoring and i still busted my nut with in 5 minutes. This is her birthday month and it is so far setting itself to be the most cock in a month of all time. Sunday July 9th 930 pm to 1130 and when she gets here she is in a bad mood to me only. Lets her daughter call shots and the only one that trys gets shit on... I havnt heard anything about her fuck fest nor has she given me the recorder so.... I am nearing my limit on how much I can take before I go absolute postal. Its to the point now that I totally know I am capable of the absolute worse scenario and it is slowly piling up like a snowball just getting bigger....Im sure there will be more to come but hope she starts treading water differently... Tuesday July 11th She was there at 915 and didnt get home till 115 but supposedly it was no good cause she couldnt get wet and he couldnt get hard. But Im thinking 4 hours was a pretty good effort put fourth for someone that you have no feelings for... But I have yet to hear the tape and for the third night in a row she is not sleeping in our bed ... Because the little kitten cant sleep by itself. So I am in here again and am going to have to rub one out because make no doubt .... she wants nothing to do with my dickclit.... Dont know when but im sure there will be more after I hear the recording .... so until then....so I only listened to 15 minutes before I came unglued. Everything we had agreed on ... went right out the door. All they did was talk, but the shit they talked about showed me beyond a shadow of a doubt that they have other meetings or contact each other or something on the down low. So when I confront her a huge fight breaks out to where she wants to hurt me. She bit into my arm and scratched my face she kicked me super hard in the head so a couple times I palmed her face and pile drove her body and her face down so she can understand i will break her. Well I was trying to walk away but she wasnt having it so it got louder and worse for me cause I dont hit girls. I finally went to the other room and after 2 minutes I walked back in and she is erasing the tape recording. She totally erased all evidence and material I would have to try and get answers from her... I hadnt even got to the sex and she was there 4 hours..... So here it is 2 days later we still havnt had sex in god knows how long and her bday is coming up sunday and I am going away on a 2 day trip tomorrow fri the14th... Yeah I know she will fuck him again but now she will start lieing about it... This just might be my last insert. but its not..so on her bdy we finally have sex . who knows if she did while I was gone but our little session ortifies her need for his cock because the very next day Monday july 17th he digs her out real good. Although she was only gone for about an hour she absolutely just got her hole smashed by him then comes home to my locked up dicklit and rides on my face as I jerk off all over myself once I free myelf from the mini chasity. She didnt cum with me but she said it was ok cuz she came big time earlier... so the very next day he tries to get her over there but she didnt go. Which I found odd, especially after the fact that she was threatening me that this month was going to be a new record for how many times she gets his cock. So im pretty sure tonite will be one of his signature sessions but we will see... till then wednight july 19th 9:45 pm and she just left to go over and get her brains fucked out. and if she is there past midnight then she once again fucked him for our anniversary. In fact I asked her what should I do and she said to play with myself . so she doesnt even want to go there when she gets back. Im going fishing at like 4 am so who knows how long she will be there. All I do know is that she is trying to get me to bet against her beating her record which is actually 13 in december and today is the 6th time this month. So she will need 7 more in 11 days.I dont think sh will beable to do it unless this guy got rid of his chic...As it turns out we didnt even have sex on our anniversary and here it is the 21st now and a friday I was thinking it would happen for sure. But not as of yet. Maybe she is over it with him....hahaha yeah right to be cont..... saturday july 22nd at 915 pm she is there again . and when she gets the call she asks me if its ok if she goes ... I said only if you want to ... She replies "yeah kinda' and with that she gets dressed up in a little slut outfit and high platform shoes and is on her way within 15 minutes and a hour and half later she comes strolling in the house with a smile and hands me the recorder ... so here i am listening to her basically having one orgasm fter another. She told me to keep my dicklit locked up so thats what i did cause she said she wants me but now she has had his and she is not in any rush to get in here and play with mine.... cant say i blame her... to be continued So here I am again wednesday july 26th 10:25 pm I knew tonite was going to be go with her .... he was trying last night and he was telling her to sneak over, but she didnt know i was in the garage and I wasnt replying to her, so that fucked that up for them... Today is a different night with a different outcome. I was just informed that she just pulled up and is heading inside to get her pussy wrecked . Fuck I wish I had a sweet little pop tart to go fuck. But these days finding some little girl is like making my girl cum with my dick.... its just not happening. So stay tuned for th e outcome 1-1/2 wrecking is what ensued she didnt want mine after so it was a good thing I locked it up. Monday July 31st and the last day of the month and she is finishing up laundry then gettin in the shower so she can head over there and finish July with a bang. And although she didnt break her record for the month, she still got a lot of BBC. And he got more of my girls pussy then I did her total for the month is 9 times and mine was 6 well she showed up after an hour and half of constant screaming .. orgasm after orgasm and she even gave up her ass to him... imagine that.. Way more going on between them then she will admit... I dont understand ...she cant quit fucking him she pretty much does me out of pity. she never gets off with me even if i go down on her ... SHE CANT NUT WITH ME PERIOD!!! She hates being around me except to make sure i aam not having fun but she sticks with me.... why ? she cares about me but she definetly doesnt love me... I guess i am the one who is gonna have to make the move.... Cuz this is getting old... By the way today marks the 100th time fucking him that i know of anyway She thinksshe isnt forming a relationship with him when she sticks around for a half hour or an hour after sex... folding his laundry , describing her parents pool to him he knows everything about me but she wont even ask his gfriends name??? Thanks for playing! thursday aug3rd she went over there again for another roll in the hay. She has been getting dressed up more and more for her little visits and this time her little dress that didnt even make it mid thigh. When she returned she went to bed and when I got in bed she was watching some interracial porn and playing with herself and wouldnt fuck me saying my dick would do nothing for her so I sat there listening to the recording and playing with myself . She told me i was pretty much cut off from her pussy . Atleast my dick was She told me this visit wasnt all that but from what i have heard shesucked his cock for over a half hour right when she got there and then he fucked her silly for about 45 minutes athen she was sucking some more and then he fucks her into a few more orgasms.. yeah sounded just aweful but then she decides to mount me with her well fucked pussy and my dick falls in. She is grinding around and I feel both of there loads drip out all over my nuts and when she does that for about 5 minutes she slides up and mounts my face and has me jerk myself off as I am swallowing all her juices. more to come monday aug7th 10pm she goes over there and isnt back till midnightSo lastnight in bed she tells me she wants to fuck him on the average 15 times a month. Basically every other day and I can hit her pussy 5 times a month and it has to be after him. There is no promises that she will fuck me till i cum in fact she will do like she did lastnight and push down around the base of my dick without touching it and make it as big as possible(about 4-1/2 inches) and let me jerk it. So i finished listening to lastnights fuck session and she was confirming to him that she loves his cock and he owns her pussy and that she could suck his cock all night long. She does not like sucking mine in fact she does it for no more than a minute... more to come 11;45pm on thursday august 10th 2017 And we were almost in the car to go fishing when she noticed he had texted her earlier. She has been a basket case all day . Overwhelmed with what the next few days have in store for her and getting her class set up. So she was looking at this visit as a stress release. And she didnt want to fuck up a good thing and fuck me when she got back so she told me to handle my own pleasure. Good to her word when I was laying there naked she came and cuddled up but absolutely was not giving her mouth or pussy to me and my diclit and now here it is friday night/saturday morning and she is asleep in the living room... more to cum Monday night august 14th At 7 pm she tells me that he texted her and that its not until 9 or 930. Didnt ask permission just told me. Come 845 she is out the door for damn near 3 hours the when she gets back not only do i not get any but she hides the recorder from me also....So we are gonna have problems this time for sure saturday August 19th and although he tried ...she did not go. Yet still it is like she is saving her pussy for him. So for this month she is right on track with me. She said I will get pussy at the most 5 times and he will get her pussy 15 times a month. well so far its twice for me and lvin has hit it 4 times. Im almost positive he will be getting some tomorrow. I will check back then Sunday Aug20th at 11:15 pm Trust and believe she has been thinking about it all weekend and just before midnight she goes over there for what sounded like some kind of extacy therapy or something. Like he was administering absolute max doses of pleasure that she could handle . I wish I had video of it cuz i would love to see the position they are in. So all I can do is imagine and know that she is experiencing a feeling that I cant even begin to think im doing anything close and comparable to what he is doing. She is in a unique position to where she can see 2 complete different sides of the coin. Him with his huge cock and 0% body fat and me with 30 lbs overweight and the penis of a 5 year old. I have to accept defeat at this point and I have, but the question is how much longer will she even want me around. I think its out of guilt right now. She feels like she has to keep me around cuz i stuck with her thru cancer. Anyways, i miss the days that she and I shared our fantasy in bed. Now that fantasy is her reality , plus some... to be continued He has been texting her all week starting the day after he fucked her .. sending her a picture of an eclipse of the moon by a huge soft penis. Later that day he says lets do a back to back but she had school work she said but never got that started. then wednesday they were texting all day from 300 to 1145 but she didnt go for some reason. So here it is the next day, and if I have ever felt the absolute certainty of anything in my life it would be this prediction of her going over there tonite. The reason im so sure? Last nite she actually let me put my dick into her for about 5 minutes. She then bullied my penis out of her with her huge black dildo. telling me whos pussy it is and making sure I put on the headphones so I can finish myself while listening to Alvin owning her pussy. So thats what I did while she layed there laughing at me and fucking herself to orgasm.. So there will be another entree later tonight I can almost promise you.... here it is september 17th and he has been out of town since a day after their last meeting... Yeah when he went out of town he made sure he fucked her the night before he left to kind of stake his claim. Or make her totally fein for his return.. So anyway its going into the third week and she has been in contact with him . He has requested video of her playing with herself while fantasizing about him... I am pretty sure she is down for it but who knows.... I told her its time to start looking for someone else...? I dont know why i dont just say enough is enough.... I guess its because i know she wont stop . If i tell her to she will just cheat on me. She has already swore to me that she will do exactly that. Why should I doubt her on that .... she has made good on every promise so far when it comes to black dick. And she and I have had sex once this month and 3 times in august and 5 times in july... so you can see she is holding good to another promise that she is cutting me off from her pussy since it doesnt do her any good any how...I know she satisfies herself since hes not round but she is literally counting the days for him to get back and i hate to think what kind of marathon fuck session will take place when he returns... This may sound like i am making matters worse but I need to find her a different dude with a bigger cock to do her... but see it would have to be a regular thing or she will go right back to him... I am so screwed ... why did I ever show her interracial porn and let her manipulate me into admitting and confessing my fantasies and my most secret desires. Then turning them into our everyday life and making me ask her to do it just so it would be all my fault when in reality she wanted it all along and knew exactly what she was doing and played me into thislifestyle where i am the total beta to a big black cocked stud. Saturday October 14th 2017, Alvins Birthday and he is still out of town. But bet your ass they hve been in contact . She wished him a happy bday and he says thank you love. But the other day he says that he bets dickhead is happy that hes not around to smash the bottom of her pussy. She laughs with him on that but says no name calling so his reply was that I started it and she says this is true...hahahaha are you fucking kidding me Anywaywe havnt had sex since the night Kelby fucked her too.13 days ago and I know she has been doin herself and I know its to thoughts of Alvins dick. So I am not even trying to fuck her.. If she wants to then she has to make the move at this point not me. Finally I highly doubt she wants to marry me anymore dec 23rd Guess whos back and says he has a present for her? well she went over there for her stocking stuffer and 2 and a half hours later he finally sends her home with a beat up pussy and a whole new year is holding true to her threats of just being more of the same. Except now he lives in long beach. Jan 15th and she gets the call , this time he fucks her in the back of his siters tahoe and she is claiming she didnt come..PFFttttt !! yeah right then thats the first time... Anyway she says he owes her now of course... to be continued Jan 20th and she is back there right now getting what he owes her. Thats right her friend is in town and its a saturday night and still she drops everything tonite to get served up. This comes after lastnite when he was trying to get her to go lastnight. saying he wants to fuck her sweet pussy. But tonite he goes as far as saying he is going to take his time and make her pussy purr. He knows he owns it. She has told him over and over this and now he is back from texas and is staking his claim..... i dont know what to do, i tried calling and getting me some but not gonna happen. So the only thing i can beat off to is recordings of them.... its gonna be a long nite plus he lives about 40 minutes away now.... to be continued So the less info she is willing to give the better the session was. She has literally told me nothing and listening to the recording she was in heaven for almost 3 hours . Thje first half hour there was a basketball game on and he was narrating it as she was cumming all over his cock. When the game ended he got down to business and had her anyway he wanted. I cant count how many orgasms she had when 1 of them lasts for over 20 minutes its hard to tell. What I do know is that when she got home she fell asleep and hasnt even remotely acted like she wants to fuck me. We did have a little talk and she told me that she thinks im looking elsewhere because her pussy is so big. But she makes me cum almost every time. Im the one the cant make her cum and she says " Thats what Alvin is for". How can I argue that. There is noway I can compete with this guy, I really dont know why she stays with me... obviously there will be more so until then.... I will just keep playing with my dicklit mon february 12th 2018 and its Presidents day Well she has been texting with him all day and they finally agree to him picking her up and them getting a room .. He wants to keep her all night but I quickly stopped that idea. So when it was all said and done she got picked up at 830 and he dropped her off about 3_1/2 hours later. But here is where im pissed... just over 2 hours was recorded She acts like she cant get to the recorder and yet she waited till she was at his place to turn it on. So basically she had all that time to talk shit, plan and deviate off the record. Totally planned i mean why would you chance it if it was so hard to get a chance to turn it on? No he is totally in on it at this point i do believe and so listening to it it seems so planend out. So I told her there is no sense in going back cause we have enough recordings... Because after all she says she is doing it for me...lol It just so happens that she has one orgasm after another while she is doing it for me and why she cant orgasm with me at all. In fact when she got home she didnt shower just climbed into bed and fell asleep. so i went out on the couch. The following day and the same shit i slept on the couch and she didnt shower till the following morning. 3 nights later she finally took a shower at night so we fucked. The damage this guy does to her hole is something you only read about. literally just makes her hole so i can stick my dick in without touching her insides. kind of like playing operation where you touch the outside and buzzzzzzz!! Anyway here it is thursday and in pretty sure after lastnight fuck session she is ready for his so staye tuned. so on a different note I have gotten it 1 time more on 23rd making it alvin 1 me 3. March 2nd friday Last night was the 2nd night in a row we fucked. I believe she actually got off, but I used everything in the tool box leaving her craving much more. So since its friday and she has a new car, id be willing to bet the farm on it. Unless I can come up with something . to do to be continued.... Tuesday March 6th and this will be the last entry . I guess im just too old for this and its time to put up or shut up. He texted her 2 time yesterday dressed up in a skin tight body suit in one of the pics in which you can see his semi hard cock reaching a few inches away from his knee it looks like a club and its at some costume party and you can clearly see 3 white girls checking him out . The next pic he says he wants to run right up in that pussy. And hes imitating the heisman trophy. So she tells me she doesnt feel up for it so i tell her i think she should stop. So she says ok... The end... If you read all of this do you think she will be faithful to me ??