I am in a relationship with a woman that I have been for years. My sexual desires have changed . Well maybe not changed I have just acted on them in my recent years. I believe that I have always had strong urges for the male genitalia. My first experience with a man was while I was in the Army in Germany. A German man hit me up. We sucked each other’s dick and came with stroking off. Turn me on but also scared me too.
I didn’t do it again for more than 20 years. Back when there was Craigslist I posted many times and I finally got someone to suck. Ether he was horny or I was really into it he filled my mouth with a huge load tasted so good and kinda salty sweet it was heavenly I was 50 years old.. I was liking it and doing it often but never could find a regular one. I get horny for some dick all the time.
I even rented a room once and setup a glory hole I had 3 visits in around an hour. I got nervous after the third one and shut it down. I posted it on Grindr. Grindr has turned into a platform where guys use it for advertising for premium sites. Have not had much success with any site for a while. I had a guy who was bisexual and liked to play but always said that he wanted a woman. I’m ok with that but I think about dick more than anything else. I have not sucked in a long time. Anyway I’m just putting it out there.
I live in Killeen Tx area and want someone to violate me and get off for me. I don’t know?

 

I started acting on my desires late in life, too. I wish I could have been able to explore more when I was younger and better looking! LOL. I think about sucking dick and swallowing cum most of the time. I have tried Grindr, but I am nervous about just meeting up with someone I don’t know very well, mainly because of personal safety. So, when I don’t agree to an instantaneous meeting, I get called a “flake” or “a waste.”

 

It all sounds so familiar.
But the one thing I think I have learned over the years, is that I value my own health and safety over simple pleasures these days.
SO while I am frustrated, and I wold dearly love to grab a thick juicy cock and put it in my mouth, I won't just hookup and hope for the best. I want to find someone I can trust.
My own fragile health, going into my sixth decade, is of great concern and I know that some men want to live out their Alpha fantasies. But I won't allow that.
Don't worry about what others call you. I used to think about it too much when I was younger.
I feared being called, Queer, or Fag, or other derogatory names, so I suppressed my desires to explore that side of me, and now I'm paying for my fears.
However, I cannot dismiss my current fears, because I know that they are all too real. I've been warned about my situation by the professionals and I take their advise seriously.
Take your time and find someone that it feels right with and that you can trust.