Payment in Lusts

Sunday,

Dear Diary

There were few options left for me. I’ve owed too much, but still needed more to support the things that keep me secure. My alliance of cooperation with that dog-of-a-’man’ for being his nominal military dependent-wife in a pay scheme hasn’t come to anything. All I have to show for it are the drippings of semen that had leaked from my fucked and used cunt. He’s been only a mirage of expectations. Nothing of any substance had come from his promises.



Mr Fallback Partner has been GOOD for those band-aid, short-term fixes of a thick cock-pounding for me, but little else. My job I hate and I don’t earn enough to pay my rent or any of my bills. Only my cigarette habit gives me those moments of relief from my problems..


I’m a mother of a son, I wish I hadn’t had, but feel just maternal enough to care for.. My baby girl was taken from me and given to my up-to-now accommodating Mom, but her husband is getting to pushy about my doings and how I got into all this adversity. If I hadn’t gone and asked him for money (Can i plz borrow 40$ til friday . ..i have 2 pay my friend bk...plzzzzzzz) that I’’d payback that week, he wouldn’t have the leverage he has over me, now to pay him with cash or sex if he’s going to allow my baby-girl to come to see me..


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Vindictive Expectations

When there is no else to turn to....

[She’ll do what any ‘ho’e will do..]



She’s always been a needy step-daughter bitch, who could hardly take care of herself without depending on someone else to be the supplement aid for her party-first ways she learned as a teen..


Between incompetency that was enabled by a laziness inherited from her father’s ways of using and depending on others , when not cutting corners to get by, she was a calamity headed for her next pathetic drama from her impregnated teen years to the halfway house at age 23..



I got a piece of her then, when I came upon her needing a ride back to ‘the halfway’. She was totally a willing submissive as I tasted the excitement of her saliva as our mouths joined in a french-kiss as I groped her breast and crotch in my car ..


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https://soundcloud.com/orangehr_refugee/not-on-me

Not on ME, You won't!

Da ‘Hoe doesn’t learn


I’m pulling out of the gas station and I see a familiar looking car making a left turn at the light into this side street

I pull out of the gas station and make a right turn at the light before the car has gone too far, and IT IS MORE than FAMILIAR.. It’s that bitch’s car, and she was primping in front of the mirror before I left the apartment.

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Massaging de F'ck out of Time


Still continuing in the relationship with the ‘Not on ME, You won’t’ wench in the most mercenary of co-dependencies, she’d show up at my place when she needed something for when her lazy ass was too foolish to have planned ahead for what she’s needing now.....


One mid -morning, recently my phone is vibrating and I see the bitches name on the screen.. Being as ensnared in this human bondage as mutually as she calling me, I answer..


Yeah, ‘B’, whatcha want..


Earl, I need $100 dollars..


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It IS, because I WANT it to be..


Bennie was near the end of her rope.. Going out the night before and drinking and carousing with her friendswasn’t going to change the math for what she had to pay for the rent and utilities, due in a few days. “Paying those things will happen in time. Being out doing things with Sue and Maisie is more affirmational and inspirational for my morale, than worrying about what I owe or have to do tomorrow to get that cash.”



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New adventure with ‘the Beaatch’


As you prior readers may remember my previous encounters with that Bitch of the codependency of my human bondage to her in ‘Not on ME, You won't!’ and the subsequent ‘Massaging de F'ck out of Time’, I was dealing with the ‘Hoe who wasn’t worth more than a good revenge fuck on her big-tittied chest .


As fate would have it, she’s back again.. This time she’s blowing up my phone texting me about how she needs transportation to the courthouse, because she’s being arraigned for a DUI she got on Valentine’s Day. She was on her way home from her regular dildo-paramour who both neither persuaded to arrange for her to take an Uber/taxi, nor prevented her from driving home. Though it was just 3-miles from his place to her place [compounding the negligence of the Bitch and the ethical indictment on her choice of ‘partners’] she was stopped by the cops and ticketed.. I guess her thinking that she could have her shirt unbuttoned at the top so that the officer could get a good tempting look that might open up a wink-n-nod arrangement for her not being hauled-in in exchange for the copper getting a free suck and a few fingers up (and if necessary, more) in her already wet-with-spunk cooch didn’t work out..


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Fucking what are you on???

 

Adrenalin

 

This would be better if one could actually read it.

 

I'm speculating that you're alluding to the full texts, which are found at the posted link?